christmas. christmas.

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sinundo namin ung tita ko at ung trabahador nilang tinreat nila papunta dito sa pinas. pero sobrang nakakagulat talaga dahil hindi naming inakalang dadating din ung mga pinsan ko. grabe. so, gulat na gulat naman ung tito ko dahil hindi niya alam iyon at nasurprise daw talaga siya. so aun, pinroblema lang naman namin kung paano sila kakasya sa nissan urvan.

badtrip nga eh dahil gustong gusto ko na talagang umuwi pero ayaw nila mamaya pa daw. tas nakauwi kami ng mga 2 ng umaga. ang inaalala ko lang naman eh ung ginawa kong ref cake dahil gusto ko na siyang tikman. tas ung mga regalo din, gusto ko nang buksan dahil meron dung hindi ko pa alam ang laman.

pagdating sa bahay, bukasan kaagad ng mga gifts. may natanggap akong singsing na relo (haha. oo), lalagyanan ng mga ganun, wallet, damit, chocolate, paper clip, pencil case, tsinelas, lotion, keychain, lapis, letter, at pera. haha. dinekwat ko nga rin pala ung damit na niregalo sa nanay ko kasi maliit iyon sa nanay ko at kasya iyon sa akin. :))

tapos natulog lang kami for 3 hours dahil may pupuntahan daw kami. may gift giving/christmas party kaming aatendan. so, gumising kami ng super aga, naligo, hindi na kami nagbreakfast at umalis na rin. sinundo namin si Auntie Puring (naging piano teacher ko siya nung summer dati) tas pumunta na sa Taguig para sunduin naman sila tapos pumunta na ng Novaliches. super traffic doon kasi madaming nagsimba. tapos nakarating din naman kami sa church nila (christians sila. catholic kami ni inay).

masaya kasi kantahan at sayawan (parang ung BELIEVE) tas may games at pa-raffle. syempre, courtesy of ALC (Abundant Life Church) Guam and cavan family. haha. :)) tapos umalis kami at pumunta sa SM North Edsa (pinaka-malaking mall na daw sa pinas.). tapos pumunta sa Taguig at umuwi na rin. sobrang nakakapagod.

pagdating sa bahay, kinain ko uli ung ref cake na gawa ko. feeling ko nga ako lang ung kumakain nun eh. masarap naman siya eh. bat ayaw nila? haha.

christmas eve

so kanina lang gumawa ako ng REF CAKE. ang pinaka-unang ref cake ko. :)) tapos tinulungan ko din ung mom ko sa pagluto. wala kaming masyadong handa ngayon dahil hindi kami magcchristmas dito sa bahay. ewan ko ba ang gulo kasi. mamaya daw kasi aalis kami. susunduin namin ung tita ko.

excited na nga ako dahil magbubukasan na ng mga gifts mamaya. actually alam ko na ung mga regalo saken kahit nakabalot pa sila. pano ba naman, binuksan ko na siya nung isang araw. medyo na-excite lang kasi talaga ako. haha. baliw.

may christmas party nga pala ung subdivision namin ngayon. ayoko ngang pumunta. puro mga bata lang naman ung andon at ung mga matatandang parang nakainom ng ecstasy dahil sobrang gustong-gusto nilang maglaro ng mga parlor games. yung tipong parang ngayon lang nakalaro. haha. pero pinipilit kasi ako ng kapitbahay namin. so, pupunta ako pero magpapakita lang ako, ibibigay ung regalo ng kapatid ko, at aalis din kaagad. hindi na ako kakain dahil may pagkain naman sa bahay. DUH! may pagkain kaya dito. :))

sige na nga. magbibihis na ako dahil malapit na magstart ung party.

merry christmas nga pala!

EASTWOOD

so, aun. pumunta kami sa Eastwood kanina para icelebrate ung birthday ni bespren. pero, pumunta muna kami sa bahay nila. dun kasi kami magkikita-kita eh. so nagpahatid na rin ako papunta sa bahay nila. unfortunately, mali ung binabaan kong kanto so nagkandaligaw-ligaw na ko sa Pasay. pero sa huli nakarating pa rin ako sa bahay nila. buti na lang tumawag saken si Romiena at sinabi kong naliligaw na ako.

papunta sa Eastwood, nakakaantok... sobra. medyo malayo din siya (kasi nga sa QUEZON eh) kaya nakakapagod at masakit sa pwet. :)) pero nawala din yun nung andun na kami. syempre, first stop ay dun sa office ng dad niya. ang ganda sobra, as in! call center yun kaya ung mga tao dun ay nag-iingles. onti nga rin pala ung mga tao dun kasi maaga pa. ung mga agents na andoon eh ung mga nag-night shift.

so, tinour muna kami dun sa building. buti na lang at Facilities manager (uhmmm. i'm not sure kung yan talaga ung position ng dad niya. basta mataas un) ung dad niya at may access siya sa lahat ng lugar sa building. astig nga eh. meron pang parang ID scanner sa bawat pinto at ung mga authorized lang ang pwedeng maka-pasok. pero hindi lahat ng workers/agents dun merong ganun. (okay... tama na.) basta! tinour niya kami at pinakilala sa bawat tao doon. tapos, gala na kami.

pumunta muna kami sa... nakalimutan ko na ung pangalan nung mall eh. basta, medyo maliit lang siya at onti lang ang tao. nag-ikot ikot lang kami dun tas palipat lipat din ng mall. tas kumain kami at nanood ng sine (four christmases). nagbilliards nga rin pala kami. super saya talaga. kaya lang kinailangan ko nang umuwi dahil late na rin kaya hinatid na kami sa bahay.

so, i changed my layout to suit this season. well, Christmas is just days from today and we better get ready! haha. :))

letters.

wala lang. gumawa lang ako ng mga letters para sa mga bibigyan ko ng mga matitinong regalo. nilagay ko lang dito kasi baka ireformat ung pc.

leona,

merry christmas! bago mo nga pala buksan, bibigyan na kaagad kita ng clue kung ano ba talaga ang laman ng nasa loob. nakita mo na ito sa Lianas eh. paborito ito ng mga batang babae - mahirap man o mayaman. maaari mong suklayin ang buhok nito, hubaran kahit saan, kausapin kung wala kang makausap, lagyan ng make-up, pasayawin, pagtripan, pugutan ng ulo kapag galit ka, at marami pang iba. nahulaan mo na ba?

---o sige, maaari mo nang buksan.---

siguro akala mo CUTIE doll no? haha. :)) baliw! kung hindi mo pa rin mahulaan kung ano ung isa dito, bibigyan uli kita ng clue. paborito mo. mabalahibo, may beak, mahilig tumuka, ipinanganak ka sa year na ito, paborito rin ng minamahal mo (at may minamahal na rin. awww), lumilipad (sabi mo), mas paborito mo ito kapag ito'y tinurbo, paborito ng lahat ng bata (lalo na ng mga batang mahilig mag-Jollibee), matatagpuan sa tapat ng bahay ninyo, maingay, gumigising sa iyo araw-araw, nanghahabol (lalo na ung lalaki), at minention na sa Noli Me Tangere. o ano, nahulaan mo na ba? edi MANOK. buti na lang at iyan ang nabili ng aking butihing ina. tamang-tama. :))

yung isa naman, siguro alam mo na rin. akala ko nga mga 40 lang yan eh. nadaya ako. hindi pala. pero ayus lang. ayoko kasi na damit naman ang iregalo ko sa inyo. ano yun, puro damit na tayong lahat. edi parang bumili na rin ako ng 3 damit. diba? at saka, sabi mo dati gusto mo ng necktie kaya ayun. clover nga rin pala siya dahil alam kong iyan ang pinaka-mababa sa larangan ng pagbabaraha. diba lagi ka namang talo? haha. :)) loser!

o sige, sayang ang ink. dapat nga eh ilalagay ko pa ung muka mo dito. kaso, mauubusan na kami ng ink. haha. merry christmas!

dale,

merry christmas! bago mo nga pala buksan, bibigyan na kaagad kita ng clue kung ano ba talaga ang laman ng nasa loob. nakita mo na ito sa Lianas eh. paborito ito ng mga batang babae - mahirap man o mayaman. maaari mong suklayin ang buhok nito, hubaran kahit saan, kausapin kung wala kang makausap, lagyan ng make-up, pasayawin, pagtripan, pugutan ng ulo kapag galit ka, at marami pang iba. nahulaan mo na ba?

---ayyy. alam na niya ang laman. buksan mo na nga!.---

siguro akala mo CUTIE doll no? haha. :)) baliw! wala na akong dapat sasabihin dahil alam mo rin naman ung laman nito (except nga naman dun sa isa). so, bubuyog. bat nga ba? malamang yellow. diba peyborit mo yun? halata din naman sigurong yellow yun. so, hindi ko rin alam kung ano talaga ung purpose nian. paglaruan mo na lang o kaya idisplay mo na lang kung saan-saan. wag na wag mo talaga iyan itatapon, sayang naman kasi ung effort at ung PERANG nagastos diyan. haha. :))

ung utang ko nga pala sayo, pwedeng wag ko na lang bayaran? wala na kasi akong pera. hindi pa ako pinayagan sa star city ngayon. tapos, baka hindi na rin ako makasama sa gig sa sabado. MAAWA ka na. shit. hindi talaga ako pinayagan sa star city. badtrip nga eh. hindi ko nga kinakausap ung mga parents ko eh. barbero kasi sila.

o sige. MERRY CHRISTMAS nga pala!


o sige, sayang ang ink. dapat nga eh ilalagay ko pa ung muka mo dito. kaso, mauubusan na kami ng ink. haha. merry christmas!

Jasmine,

merry christmas! bago mo nga pala buksan, bibigyan na kaagad kita ng clue kung ano ba talaga ang laman ng nasa loob. nakita mo na ito sa Lianas eh. paborito ito ng mga batang babae - mahirap man o mayaman. maaari mong suklayin ang buhok nito, hubaran kahit saan, kausapin kung wala kang makausap, lagyan ng make-up, pasayawin, pagtripan, pugutan ng ulo kapag galit ka, at marami pang iba. nahulaan mo na ba?

---o sige, pwede mo nang buksan.---

siguro akala mo CUTIE doll no? haha. :)) baliw! alam mo bang saktong-sakto ang nabili ng aking butihing ina sapagkat sa tuwing makikita ko ito, naaalala kita? haha. :)) hindi ko nga rin alam kung anong use nitong baboy na to, pero idisplay mo na lang siya. paglaruan mo na lang din kung wala kang magawa.

tapos ung isa, necktie. ayoko ng damit kasi lahat na tayo damit ang ireregalo sa isa't isa. kaya, para maiba, ito na lang. akala ko nga mura lang, tapos... dapat pala damit na lang ung binili ko. haha. :)) saglit, hindi ko pa nga rin pala nakakalimutan ung UTANG mo sa akin. ung 13 pesos. bayaran mo na ako! haha. :)) bat nga pala eto ung napili ko para sa iyo? wala lang. wala na kasing iba eh. puro parehas na ung iba, tas ung isa pangit pa. eto na lang ung natitirang matino.

o sige, sayang ang ink. dapat nga eh ilalagay ko pa ung muka mo dito. kaso, mauubusan na kami ng ink. haha. merry christmas!

Paula,

Happy Birthday! ayun. hindi ko nga alam kung ano tong regalo ko eh. basta, weird kasi eh. tas emo ka. haha. :)) para siyang pang-girl. pero hayaan mo na. basta, may pipindutin ka nga pala sa ilalim para may mangyari dun sa giraffe. basta, try mo. natutuwa nga ako dun eh. kaso baka di ka matuwa. hayaan mo na nga. haha. :))

17 ka na daw, sobrang tanda mo na! grabe, eh ako 15 pa lang. haha. :)) nakooo. sabi ko na nga ba eh, napaka-walang kwenta nitong sulat ko. Merry Christmas nga rin pala. muntik ko nang makalimutan.

sige, baka maubos ung ink. sabi ko na nga ba eh dapat sinulat ko na lang, para masaya. kaya nga lang wala kong bolpen. pulubi no? barbero talaga. :)) ingatan mo nga pala ang iyong pinakamamahal. sasabihin mo na ba sa kanya? oo, dapat. diba? sige na nga. kanina pa ako nagsasabing tama na kasi nga aksaya sa ink. hindi naman kasi kami tulad niyong AKSAYADO sa ink.

ay, nakalimutan ko. sorry nga pala kung hindi ako nakapunta sa bahay niyo kahapon. pumunta pa kasi ako sa SM para bumili ng regalo kay JEAN. sorry talaga. belated happy birthday na lang! sige. merry christmas na rin!

Jean,

Merry Christmas! sorry nga pala kung hindi Eclipse ung niregalo ko ha. sold out na kasi siya eh. as in nagtanung-tanung na talaga ako sa lahat ng Bookstores at wala na daw. sayang talaga. hihiramin ko pa naman siya sana. haha. joke. :)) ayun. hindi ka na tuloy makakabili ng Breaking Dawn (na hihiramin ko rin sana). eto. Heartstrings na bag na lang ung binili ko. sana magustuhan mo. sana din gamitin mo.

nahulaan mo nga pala na ako ung nakabunot sa iyo pero syempre TODO deny naman ako. AKO PA! haha. :)) akala din ni elgelyn na siya ung nabunot ko.

salamat nga rin pala sa lahat. sa lahat-lahat - sa pagpapakopya, sa pagkain tuwing math time, sa pagiging kausap ko pag wala na akong makausap, at sa pagiging isang mabuting kaibigan.

so, hanggang dito na lang. mauubusan na rin kasi ako ng ink kaya maikli na lang ung letter ko. sige. Merry Christmas ulit!

new moon.

whoa. parang sobrang tagal ko nang hindi nag-oonline. nakakatamad kasi eh. saglit. english na lang kaya para masaya. haha. :))


so, i've just finished reading New Moon! it's actually my first time reading such book in a short period of time. i only read it for THREE DAYS. haha. should i be proud of myself? well, no. i'll just look stupid and imbecile. it's not a big deal for others. but for me it is. so, am i telling myself to be proud? hmmmm. BOBS! :))

so, back to the topic. i've finished reading it and i'm not that satisfied. well, it's actually boring in the middle (for Edward was gone and Jacob's always there). and also, there's no real villain (i thought it's victoria at first). i mean, no action scenes like what was in twilight, with James and Victoria as the criminals. well, i haven't read twilight, though we've already watched it. they say that the movie sucks, that it doesn't really followed the book. does it really have to be the same as what is in the book? considering its very detailed actions, a certain book can't be as perfect as what can really be on screens (except for Jonathan Livingston Seagull, maybe. what the hell! who's gonna watch that if it really will exist? haha). it just isn't fair.

well, enough for the argument. and i think my talking should end now.

yes.

super. later.

mcdo, eh?

this day rocks (sarcastically speaking). uhmm. by the way, i have to say "hello, how are you" to this stupid little blog. it's been a while since i posted another strange, ugly story of mine. well, i couldn't help it. my life is full of thorns.

so mcdo, eh? haha. fcuk off.

want to know? well, it's just a simple meeting for our research. the meeting place and time was in McDo and at 9 in the morning. so, i woke up and cleaned the house. i left the house at around 9:25 for i still needed to ask our neighbor to watch/baby-sit my brother. i was then excited when i finally got a trike on the way to Mcdo.

i pushed the entrance door and finally stepped my foot on the clean, shiny tiles of the fastfood. first, i waited for five minutes. and then, i ordered a coke float to decrease the loneliness i felt that time. ten more minutes... 20... 30... traffic maybe, i thought. i still have to wait. 40... i ordered a meal... a happy meal, fried chicken and moto-moto as the toy. even though i'm not that hungry at that time, i still ate for i don't want to do nothing and look stupid for not doing anything. i finally decided to wait 10 more minutes or i'm off and they'll be dead meat on Monday. after, no one arrived. no one showed off.

i was right. i shouldn't have wasted my time, money, energy, effort, sweat on that stupid meeting.

when i got home, i texted dale and asked her if she knew loriza and arwin's number. she replied and told me that arwin's at the MTAP, with her. ohhhh, shit. shit. shit. shit. shit. shit. shit. shit. shit. shit. shit. shit. shit. shit. shit. shit. shit.

fresh day

monday - a fresh day to start your week. it should be calm, peaceful... and... and... i let it down. yeah. this monday was a weird one (well, not exactly). i just failed all of our tests. well, here's the start of everything, my most precious despicable monday.

i peacefully got off my bed to turn off the alarm that disturbed my precious sleep. i had no choice but to get up and take a bath. and so, i checked the time and it's already 6 in the morning. thank goodness, i was finished. all that i have to do is to fix my things and go out.

i arrived at the school while they are singing the national anthem. i was surprised when mickay was behind me and told me... if i have reviewed on our test in ENGLISH. what?! omg. i forgot about that. yest, three chapters (haha. that's only three chapters). you're stupid when you're thinking that way. three chapters meant three days. yes, three days of suffering and memorizing all the tiny details mentioned. three chapters? oh no. every chapter is read for about two hours (if you really need to remember the slightest words, details, or whatever it is). all that i did that time was to pray. pray that the test would be cancelled and continued the next day or the next week, whatever he prefers.

WE HAD THE TEST. yes, that stupid test. i'm quiet sure that i'm going to fail. at least i tried and answered the first one. if only i knew the kind of test... i'll surely not memorize every single detail the chapter has... if only... if only i knew...

never mind that thing. so, we also had our mcday today....

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wala na kong oras. paalam na.

[sigh]

regarding dun sa balloon namin sa values, all i can say is SHIT. isang malaking TAE. hayyy. ang babaw ko naman. iniyakan ko pa yan kagabi (considering the time, which is almost 2 in the morning, we can say that it happened this morning). sobra as in humagulgol ako. :)) pano ba naman, my mom told me that the balloons were already set. so, i trusted her, of course, for she even bothered to text me about that STUPID little thing. and then, siguro mga maggagabi na, my tita texted me that the balloons weren't the one i needed - the stupid balloons on sticks, the one that doesn't fly, without helium. she reasoned out that helium balloons were not allowed, according to the law. DUH?!

fortunately, my mom helped me (well, maybe it's because she saw me sitting on one corner, crying). she got the yellow pages and then called one of those balloon experts. :)) as a matter of fact, my mom WAS NOT angry at me that she shouted at me, like the teachers and the sisters i've met on my grade school years. well, that's sarcastic, if you don't know.

so, the balloons are okay now. yessss. except for the payment. it's COD (cash on delivery), which means you have to pay when it comes.

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home alone again. so, i'm right in front of the computer, writing another stupid blog. :| actually, it's very hard to be alone in your house. you have to do a lot of house works (if your house is not that clean, like ours). so, i washed the dishes, cleaned the rooms, cooked food for myself (well, i only cooked noodles this afternoon, and that's my dinner already), uhmmmm... what else? watched movie - i finished AMERICAN PIE beta house yesterday, and today i watched MEAN GIRLS, updated my friendster account, slept just for an hour (that's amazing), watched Yamato Nadeshiko Shichi Henge the wallflower this afternoon at 4, uhmmm... that's all, i guess.

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time check: it's already 12:30 in the morning and they just arrived. whoa. i was surprised when my mom held in her hands a nintendo ds. well, i wish it were psp. but then... well, it's okay than nothing. so, i think my talking ends here. i also have to try that small stupid thing. :))

boredom

sa wakas at natapos ko na rin ang drafting namin (left elevation). hayyyy. pero habang gumagawa ako, nguya naman ako ng nguya ng tsokolate. wala lang. HOME ALONE nga din pala ako. so, ako lang ung mag-isa sa bahay.

lady of shalott, you and i together in this strange world

whoa. so, i'm kinda addicted to a book, which i told you wasn't mine, entitled 'Avalon High'. well, actually, it's not the book that i liked, but the legend it foretells. is it a legend or something? i don't know.

elaine of astolat - a heartbroken chick. so, elaine was a noble lady who fell wildly in love with Lancelot, a medieval hottie. when her love was not returned, she neither eat nor sleep for TEN DAYS. after her death, her body was sent down the river on a barge to somewhere where KING ARTHUR found it. she held a note in her hands for lancelot.

so, uhmmm. there was this guy named ALFRED LORD TENNYSON, a poet in the 19th century who wrote a poem about her. "THE LADY OF SHALOTT"

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english class - we had this weird yet fun activity. it's about knowing what your personality and career is. well, it started on a shape. you have to pick what shape you want or represents you. i picked square (but i really love the squiggle thing) as my first. and then, sir dids gave us the 'answer key' or 'guide'.

square - organized, detailed, KNOWLEDGEABLE, persevering, patient; meticulous, cool, not picking, LONER, ALOOF, procrastinating, complaining, resistant to change

aloof and loner, eh? haha. well, maybe, sometimes. like what i'm currently experiencing this year. i'm a little bit alone, with a different world from theirs. i can sense that they can feel it. THEY who always keep on stabbing and, without even noticing, killing me with frustrations and anguishes. i'm getting a little bit EMOtional today. i can't blame myself for doing so. it's just that these things keep running into my head, shouting and angry at me. just stick your nose out if it. got that?

ohio at dale. dale at ohio. dd at oqo. oqo at dd. olarte at taduran. taduran at olarte.

kakaiba tong araw na to. sobra. parang andaming free time. una ung physics, absent kasi si Mrs. De Jesus. buti na lang kasi may test kami. tapos filipino. may seminar kasi kaming mga seniors. eh hanggang lunch pa naman yun. tapos, inalam ko kung ano ung blood type ko. alam ko na siya (O daw sabi ng nanay ko). pumila kami para ipatusok ang daliri namin sa karayum at magpadugo. :)) eh, medyo may pagkaduwag ako pagdating sa ganun, kaya nagpahuli ako.

ayun, hinabol muna namin nila Loriza at Arwin ung speakers. pano ba naman, gagawin namin silang mentors. natuwa naman kami nung pumayag na sila. syempre.

tapos, balik na sa main. pumila na ako at nagpatusok na. masakit siya, syempre nilagyan ba naman ng alcohol. basta, masakit. laking gulat ko naman at walang lumabas na dugo. syempre natakot ako nun dahil baka tusukin uli ako. buti na lamang at may lumabas, pero kakaunti lamang. tapos pinisil-pisil pa ung daliri ko para dumanak na ang dugo. :))

ayun, nalaman ko rin pala na A+ pala ung blood type ko. barbero talaga nanay ko. :)) haha. joke lang yun.

siya nga pala, naglaro nga pala kami ni leona ng TIC-TAC-TOE. nanalo ako syempre. at si jubac? natalo ko rin siya ng isang beses. bwahahahah. :)) nagpusoy dos din kami. ayun oh. bumalik na naman kami sa dati, adik na adik. naglaro kami nila arene, ako, leona, jas, jam, at ann. masaya siya, sobra.

tapos, uwian na. edi umuwi na kami. sabi ko kay dale na wag na sumabay samin para magkasama sila ni OHIO. tinanong ko nga rin pala si ohio na ihatid na lang si dale, syempre. pero ayaw eh. kaya yun, kaming tatlo na naman ang magkakasabay.

7-11 muna para magpalamig at uminom ng slurpee. nilibre kami ni dale dahil nakita na naman niya si ohio. lagi naman ganun eh, pag andyan na si ohio, nililibre niya kami. kaya yun, pumasok ung GOS (hindi na nga EGOS eh, wala na kasi si EDU. ewan ko kung bakit.) sa 7-11. malamang ang dahilan ay andoon si dale (hindi ako sigurado pero iyon ang nahihinuha ko).

iniwan namin si dale sa piling ng GOS sapagkat bibili si leona ng cartolina para sa drafting. tapos, bumalik na kami, nag-uusap silang dalawa. tinanong ko uli si ohio kung ihahatid niya si dale. hindi daw kasi kasama naman daw kami eh. tapos yun, nagpaalam na siya kay ohio at si ohio kay dale. tapos, ayun.

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pag-uwi ko sa bahay, walang tao. nagtext ako sa nanay ko kung nasaan ung susi pero sinabi nila na akala daw nila ay sasama ako sa kanila. so ayun, nagdoorbell ako ng ilang beses kahit na alam kong walang tao sa loob. naghintay ako ng matagal. hanggang sa dumating na ang mga magulang ko. laking gulat ko na andoon pala sa loob ang aking NAKAKAIRITANG kuya. sobra. naasar ako sa kanya nang makita ko siya. antagal-tagal kong naghintay sa labas. nagdoorbell naman ako ah? bingi ba siya. basta. iritang irita ako sa kanya nang mga oras na iyon. ang dahilan naman niya ay nilalagnat daw siya? o, talaga?

basta, dumagdag pa yun sa pag-init ng ulo ko.

ACET

so, uhmm. as of now, i'm exhausted and my nose is still bleeding. :)) well, ACET's fine, or should i say very easy. yes, indeed. it's very easy to fail. :))

i woke up at 7 in the morning. still, i haven't touched any review materials or whatsoever but a book, Avalon High - which is not mine. so, i took a bath, ate my breakfast (but not too much) and went off. to my surprise, we arrived there pretty much early, at 10:30 am. haha. my mom's really excited about it, like what happened on the UPCAT day.

at around 11:30, i saw Joshua, Bea, Myrra, Ann, Mariel, and Leira (Leira has finished her exam when we saw her). and then we talked about how we wasted our time yesterday, what we feel, etc. after some time, the ACET takers must fall in line to their respective halls. of course, accompanied by those CAT personnel (is that the right term?). much to my surprise, myrra and joshua were also with the same hall as i am. and so, we chatted. we also talked about the bee i accidentaly stepped on to. don't worry, i didn't kill that insect until myrra pushed it (she got the idea from me) that it fell and died. owww. that poor little thing.

and so, we were designated to our rooms. mine was room 19, which i actually passed by while i was walking. i entered the room and sat on one of the chairs. i was surprised when the guy proctor approached me and asked my name. i answered him CONFIDENTLY (but deep inside a little bit scared and bothered), "CAVAN." :)) he emphasized to me the sitting plan we should follow and told me to sit on the chair behind me. haha. i'm so stupid.

and so, the test started. we took first English proficiency with essay (is it significant.. hero?) and then Mathematics proficiency. 10-minute break. and then gen. knowledge (which was actually 25 items that will be answered for 5 minutes only), abstract reasoning (which actually broke my head into small parts), vocabulary (5 minutes also), reading comprehension, analogy (10 minutes , i think), logical reasoning, and numerical ability.

haha. i don't think i can pass it. one reason is that i'm stupid, brain-less, and whatsoever. second, i didn't study the night before or even the days/weeks/months before it. third, i answered the test without any knowledge in my head (stocked knowledge, that's what they call it). come what may. may God guide and help me.

emo :))

emo ba tawag dun? emo ba ung nag-dedelete ng mga pictures sa friendster (as in lahat) dahil lang nagalit ka?

is that what you call emo? is it emo when you delete all your pictures in friendster just because of you're angry or something? EMO. by the way, i love elmo.

seriously speaking

whoa. i didn't go to school today because of one reason - i don't want to. haha. :)) tomorrow's acet, but i didn't have the guts to review. or maybe i just don't feel doing it. argh. i'm getting bothered already, now that i know that the test will be having an essay part.

i hate essays. i don't know why. well, considering my brain's limited capacity to think, i am only up to two things - food and rest. yes, i am like Jose Samson who don't like anything else but movies, scrumptous foods, pretty girls... no no no. scratch the girls part... and freedom. [sigh] speaking of Jose Samson, i really think he is also quiet the same with Michael Crespo. well, according to the novel, Jose don't have stage frights. he can easily talk to people, of course, because of his straightforward personality. and, in my opinion, crespo's also like that. well, maybe a little bit. :))

so, let's not talk about that anymore.

i went to school awhile ago to pass my assignment in Economics. well, i handed it down to Paula and just left afterward. of course, i don't want to be seen by any other students/classmates/batchmates/teachers. i'm not that stupid. :))

corn flakes are yummy

okay. we visited Charmaine's mom today, during class hours. we left the school at 2:00 pm - MAPEH - and i was so glad that i didn't attend her class. :)) i somewhat hate her, but not that much. i mean, at that particular moment when we left her class.

uhmmm. by the way, crespo's back. :)) as usual, leona's talking about him and how handsome he is.

after that, we went to dale's house to... uhmmmm... i don't know. oh, i remember. they would help me answer my assignment in Economics. dale also bought us two SUNDAEs from Mcdo (she's always like that whenever she's with her beloved OHIO). and then we surfed the net, criticized some mortals in friendster, gave some comments to each other and then we ate.

we're done with the main dish and of course the next is the dessert. yumyum. i actually grabbed the Corn Flakes inside the refrigerator and then told leona that we should eat some more. leona then told me to add some milk. i have my bowl filled with corn flakes and milk. but then when i tasted it, it tastes like a BURAK! yuck. :))

suspended.

i arrived in ParSci about ten minutes late, i think. it's very humiliating, thinking that i'm the class monitor. i'm supposed to be in time always. when i arrived, they were all making sounds using their tongues - the 'ttttttttttttt' sound. they're like lizards.

luckily, when i arrived, they haven't checked our assignment. paula, my seatmate, was also copying jean's assignment. of course i copied also. :)) after some time, we heard the bell rang from GOLEZ (i'm not sure if it's golez or main). and then, we shouted. we all knew that ring means suspension of classes. haha. it really is.

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today's my brother's birthday. happy birthday justin.

okayyyy. :

iibahin ko na kagad tong lay-out. haha. may kaparehas pala ako. :))

ooops.

hindi na september 9 ngayon. 1:46 na kasi ng umaga eh. hayyyy. kakatapos ko pa lang gawin ung sa ingles. buti na lang.

mournday.

this monday is mourn day. do you want to know why? it's because Charmaine Delfin's mom passed away this morning. yes. and i heard too that her dad died long years ago. i really am sorry for her. my condolences to you and your entire family.

mourn day is just an expression of myself. it doesn't mean that Mama Mary's birthday is such a grief. so, today's also her birthday. we didn't hear mass today because 1) we are not allowed to do so, 2) there's no more enough space to accommodate us, the seniors, 3) there's no such thing as "participating in co-curricular activities"/attending mass during classes, 4) we focus more on academic aspects, 5) our principal wants that, not us, 6) maybe, God forbid us for some of us will just review for our test in English. well, those are some reasons why we haven't attended the mass today. (note: those are just inferences, meaning an INTELLIGENT guess.)

so, this day was an odd one. i don't know. it seems that this day is neither ordinary nor extraordinary. hahahaha. oh, i remember. jasmine leonor's phone is the same as my phone (yes, the robbed one). awwwwww. i can still remember that day, that day when my phone was snatched/robbed/grabbed/anything you want to call it. when was that? oh right, april 25th 2008. GOD HAS PLANS. i would stop reminscing about what had happened, starting now.

uhmmm. today's also my first time to have this REGULAR TRIP. actually, my mom forgot to give me some money. she just asked me to borrow money and she'll just pay it tomorrow. well, i haven't borrowed anything from my classmates. it's just that Leona has this not-so-big-and-that's-small debt. she owed me 20 pesos. that's a big money for me, considering that i have no money that time (uhmmm. kelan nga ba ako nagkakaroon?). back to the main topic, i rode with 4 strangers - 2 men and 1 woman. yes, four strangers yet they're kind, especially the woman. i know i met her before. wait... wait... processing... saving... yes i remmber now. she's the one from the baptism of my godson. oh yeah, she's the one who talked about what is the real meaning of baptism and the true essence of it. hahah. GATCHALIAN is such a small subdivision. :))

so, that's it. time check. 11:18 PM. i haven't finished all of my assignments including math and english, the graph and the essay. argh. i promised already awhile ago that i'll do all of my assignments already today. i hate DSL. it always tempts me give comments via friendster, to chat via Yahoo Messenger, to blog via blogspot, to chuva via chuva. :))

the boat is sinking.

i was really busy this morning - cramming, procrastinating and struggling to copy our assignment in physics. also, i haven't made a slogan for this month's celebration - science month. today's theme is SCIENCE AND TECHNOLOGY: FOCUS ON FOOD SECURITY FOR COMMUNITY DEVELOPMENT. well, i only have five minutes to make my own slogan for that. i don't have to tell you what my slogan is. BASURA lang naman iyon eh.

physics is such a hard subject, for me. i don't know why i can't understand the terms and the concepts our teacher discusses, even the book. it's just that my brain don't absorb all the things related to physics. it's just like what Jose Samson feels towards math and science. speaking of Jose Samson, today's also my first time to read the first chapter of Mass. well, thanks to Sir Dids' test.

we also had some recreational activities during our PE class. the first game was Manila Paper Dance (we didn't call it as Newspaper Dance 'cause we didn't use newspapers, anyway). so, Anthony was my partner in this game. actually, it's really fun, though we're struggling to get our feet on the manila paper. we're not the winner. yet, grins can be seen in our faces. the next game was The Boat is Sinking. this really is the game whom i liked the most. yes, i really love this for we all laughed because of our craziness. we do became like children in that time. well, here's the fun part. when blanche told us to group ourselves into 2o, Lennihan, Anthony and I were left behind. we just went to one side and look at our classmates who are really having fun counting themselves. after five seconds, i think, two humans went to us. and then, another one, and another one, until we, Lennihan, Anthony and I, were all sandwiched to the wall. we laughed until our stomach aches. as a matter of fact, we can't move on because of that. we're shocked because we didn't think that they'll go to us. hahahahah. :)) right now, while i am typing, i can't help myself but laugh. awwww, i'll surely miss this.

today's also Luis' Birthday. we didn't went to his house, even though Leona and Dale wanted to. and, because of that, i decided to treat them a slurpee, but the smallest one.

those are the highlights of what had happened today.

so, tomorrow, i'm going to Paula's house to finish our project in PHYSICS, which is the periscope. argh. physics, again.

ngayong 6:08 PM, bati na kami ni JEROME. yes. salamat. thanks spidey.

spiderman.

Dear Spiderman,

linggo. wala pa ring pag-uusad. wala pa ring pag-uusad ang research namin at ang pag-aaway namin ni JEROME. so, galit pa rin siya. nakita ko ung comments nia saken.

"Ewan ko ba sau. San na comment ko? Okay ka lng? Eh ano ung ibig sabihin
ng "Awch c jerome na ung first featured moh"?"

akala ko medyo okay na. pero may sumunod pang iba.

"Isipin mo nman kasi kung ano ung dating nung sinabi moh. hmp!!!"

oo. sorry na nga eh. friends?

friends? C'est qoui ça? Tu m'enerve!

trinanslate ko to sa babelfish. eto ung lumbas: "Is C qoui that? You m' irritate!". halata naman galit pa rin saken si jerome. so, nag-sorry na ko. ewan ko kung tatanggapin nia. bahala na. bahala na si spiderman. (hindi yun joke) bat nga ba spiderman? ewan. bahala na rin.

napaiyak na naman ako. sobra. dahil sa napaka-walang kwenta kong tao, nawala ko ang mga pinaka-importanteng tao sa buhay ko. dahil sa napaka-tanga ko, nag-away kami ni jerome. dahil sa napaka-gago kong tao, hindi ko siya magawang makipagbati na sa akin. dahil sa napaka-bobo kong tao, wala na akong silbi. i should have died yesterday. i should have went with my dad in EK. i should have ridden that SPACE SHUTTLE and died because of a bloody accident. i wish i were not here.

buti pa si dale at ohio, nagkaka-igihan na. torpe nga lang sila sa isa't isa. ewan ko. nabasa ko ung blog ni DD eh. basta. masaya sila sa kani-kanilang buhay.

eto ako ngayon, umiiyak pa rin. sobra. nakikipag-sabayan nga ang mga ulap sa akin. napakalakas. HEAVY FLOW. huh? menstruation? (hindi uli yan joke). basta. bahala na uli si spiderman. tandaan mo, ipina-uubaya ko na ang lahat sa iyo, spidey.

Nagmamahal,

Michelle

hindi talaga joke yan. walang nakakatawa.

post script

hindi si jerome ung tinutukoy ko sa unang pag-iyak ko.

satearday

i woke up seeing them went off. it's my second time to be left alone. well, i don't want to go with them. i don't care whatever place they'll go.

yes, no priest parents. no stupid brother. no hyper kid.

lucky? maybe not.

i saw him again. yes, that stupid happy-go-lucky gay. i was annoyed when i saw him online in my list. steam went out my ears. i want to kill that guy/gay/homo/mortal. tears fell off from my eyes. i cried because of great wrath. suddenly i stopped, thinking that i was stupid. yes, a great moron.

my dad called me, saying that they're at EK. what? they went without me. i cried again. but it's not the one i did for him.

oh. by the way, i remember that today's saTEARday. it's a 24-hour full blast. it's a bad day. a very bad day, indeed.

when i opened my friendster account, there's a new comment. i was happy about that. yet when i clicked it, i saw jerome's comment to me.

-shadOwhEarts-
08/29/2008 10:28 am

bakit? anong problema sa order? may kinalaman ba un sa pagiging close sa isang tao? ASAR LNG UN AH. Edi ibig-sabihin pla nun huli pla ako.

so, he's mad at me. okay. okay. it's my fault. sabi ko kay dale na "awch. si jerome na ung first featured mo." actually, wala na kong masabi kaya ung ung sinabi ko. iyon ang totoo. wala naman talaga akong intensyong masaktan nang todo si jerome. haller? aawayin ko si jerome? okay. inaway ko na pala siya. pero hindi ko un sinasadya.

again, naiyak na naman ako. sobra. habang tinitignan ko ung comments nia sa iba-ibang tao. edi na-hurt din ako kasi sinasabi niya sa ibang tao - na para bang ako ung may kasalanan. oo, kasalanan ko nga, pero diba nakaka-hurt kapag iyon din ang iniisip ng ibang tao saken? grabe tong araw na to.

i'm still crying up to now.

NCAE

NCAE's over.

the test is divided into eight - Reading Comprehension, Manipulative Ability, Mathematical Ability, Clerical Ability, Science, Verbal ---, Nonverbal ---, Entrepreneurship Ability. Correct me if i'm wrong. i forgot the RIGHT words.


so, i'm here again, angry to one person. but it's different from yesterday's. it's all just because of our stupid research. story will be continued...

thunder

i thought we'll be having our NCAE today. thank goodness (I can't say the name of course), i did my essay yesterday. well, i can say that it's a trash. remember what crespo always say? yes, his famous "Basura". just for this moment, i accept that word to describe my procrastinated work.

let's not talk about that anymore.

by the way, i have this irritating scenario awhile ago, at exactly 1 pm (that's what i read from our clock). i got hot under the collar at that time. well, it's because of an irritating girl/boy, or should i say both, who, under some circumstances, tested my limit. i'm so angry with him/her/them.

you're such a SHIT/ASSHOLE/SOAB. Here i am again, angry with you guy(s). you're nothing but a shit! you always believe that it's not me. you always think that i'm not that good. you're always THINKING that you're better than me ALWAYS. sorry bitch! it's the other way around. -----------, you're such a LOSER! i'm so angry with you. as a matter of fact, i really loathe you.

i'm sorry. it's just that i can't control my feelings anymore.

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today's full of lightings and thunders. it's kinda scary but it really is beautiful. rain also fell down those big dark clouds. and this made us stop by at Jasmine's house. we spent our time there, eating and criticizing other people.

uhmmm. by the way, carla's new phone is also the same to the one i've lost (actually it's not lost, it's robbed).

the piano

i have seen a very nice short movie. the title is The Piano. it was just simple, yet its meaning is clearly emphasized. i really love that movie. i mean, a short movie.

here's the link of The Piano. Just click. (not the picture)

Teenage Pregnancy: A Reflective Essay

When I think of pregnancy, I can not help myself but be frightened – frightened because of the big responsibilities it bears. Suddenly, questions keep running into my mind. Why do I need to think about these stuffs? Why do I need to know these things? Will it affect me, my whole personality, my way of living? These questions were then answered after our class was tasked to watch a documentary – a very important one that emphasizes one of the most alarming dilemmas in our country.

The documentary, “Nanay na si Nene,” features one of the well-known problems we are facing, which is the teenage pregnancy. Teenage pregnancy is a very famous topic talked about today. It talks about underage girls, from 12 to 19 years old, becoming pregnant.

When I watched this, I was awakened to the fact that it really exists. I mean, it really is true, but I was shocked because of their ages. Jonalyn is 16, Belinda is only 14, and Lealyn was 12. Among the three teens interviewed, Lealyn is the youngest and she seems to be the most unfortunate for she bore twins. I am so saddened by her situation. Her husband does not earn enough money to buy the twin’s milk. And sometimes, they do not even eat just for their twins to have milk. I do not know if I would pity or be angry to her.


Again, questions appeared in my mind. Why do they engage in such hard situations? Do not they think first before doing something? I know regrets are always in the end, but did not they think about the possible outcomes? Do not they think about their parents, who suffered and sacrificed everything just for them to have the best? Well, let us consider some factors that can affect the teenager’s engagement to this alarming situation. The environment is one. It is true that the people around you can serve as a big influence. Your surroundings, especially in crowded areas, can control whatever you do, think and say. Media is another. Nowadays, many teens get hooked to the incredible powers of technology. However, not all are suitable for very young audiences. Some TV shows, internet sites, and even newspaper articles contain malicious contents. Peer pressure is another. According to the group of teens interviewed, they first became aware to sex because they learned it from their friends. The fact that sex has become common among children is very unfortunate. To make matters worse, it may even be considered “cool” in some and according also to them, physical intimacy is a way of expressing their love. But is it really true? Is it love that you feel? Or is it just for pleasure? Yes, pleasure. It is not love but pleasure. Love waits and infatuation hastes. If you really love someone, you shall wait – wait for the right time. Moreover, adolescence is not the right time to express such feelings. On the other hand, others think the other way. Well, we can consider this also as one of the reasons why there is an early pregnancy.

Having a baby in an early age is hard. Raising one seems to be the hardest thing one has ever done. Life today is tough and that is why we should not think of the things we should not mind. We are just teenagers and we should not rush and just focus on our studies and our future life.

PNU madness.

we had this stupid classes today. darn! how would you feel about that, taking only three subjects and then card giving afterwards?

let's talk about the card giving thing. so, my dad went to get my card. he's late and he also brought Justin with him. after the PTA meeting, my dad just went off, leaving me without seeing my grades. well, bad things appeared in my mind. maybe i have low grades that my dad got pissed off. argh.

so, jasmine and i went with leona's group (with dylan & dale) to PNU. dylan invited us for a ride (with his parents of course). but we're shocked when they stopped in BLUE WAVE. oh no. they're inviting us again for lunch. we're a little bit shy, you know. of course i'm not sure if they are also.

KFC's bucket meal, four extra rice, coleslaw, and a mashed potato - that's what we ate. dylan's parents paid it all. wow, how nice of them. we also found dale's partner. actually it's a 10-year-old boy. and yes, dale do look like at that age too. :))

after that, we went to PNU. but the guard there didn't allow us to enter for the RESEARCH (what's the word?) is not available during Saturdays. we looked busted at that time. we expected and then there's nothing. well, it's okay. we didn't spend even a centavo in going there. but of course, dylan's parents' effort were waisted.

so, we just spent our time in SM Manila and Baclaran afterwards. jasmine and i also bought the novel, Mass. and i sacrificed my CENTENNIAL one hundred pesos just to buy that book. well actually, jasmine exchanged her ORDINARY 100 peso bill to that of my EXTRAORDINARY one. nice one. :))

Happy Birthday Bea.!

ngayon nga pala ang aming dula sa MAPEH. ako ay gumanap bilang isang donya ng makalumang panahon. makalumang panahon sapagkat hindi ko kayang magsuot ng damit ng isang donya ngayon. DUH?! ako nga rin pala ang prayer leader ngayong araw na ito. buti na lamang at nakagawa ako ng dasal. at siya nga pala, naka-100 nga pala kami sa MAPEH sa ginawa naming presentasyon. buong klase iyon ah.

Ngayon din ay kaarawan ng aking kaibigan na si Bea. inimbitahan niya kami na dumalo sa kanyang handaan sa kanilang bahay. hindi naman ako makatanggi sapagkat kaibigan ko nga siya.

bago kami pumunta sa kanila, dumaan muna kami sa SM Sucat upang bumili ng 3/4 na damit ni Jasmine at Mass ni F. Sionil Jose. sa kasamaang palad, walang ganoong libro doon (na mura) kaya naisipan naming bumili na lamang ng regalo para kay Bea. galing sa Artwork ang regalo namin sa kanya. isa iyong bracelet na nagkakahalagang P ****. pagkatapos ay bumili naman sila ng tag para doon. ako nga pala ang nagsulat sapagkat maganda ang aking sulat.

papunta na kami sa bahay nila Bea. sumakay kami ng dyip. habang nasa dyip kami, nagpayabangan muna kami. hindi ko alam kung ano ang pumasok sa isipan ni Leona nang sinabi niyang napag-aralan na namin ang HTML noong nasa elementarya pa lamang kami. nagtataka ako sa sinabi niyang iyon kaya winika kong hindi pa namin iyon napapagp-aralan. tumawa sila.

nakarating na kami sa may overpass at bumaba na kami sa dyip. naglalakad na kami papuntang Villanueva. sumakay kami ng tricycle at bumaba sa Judea Extension. doon ay nagsimula na kaming maglakad. malapit na kami sa bahay nila Bea nang makasagupa namin ang isang puting aso na nagngingitngit. tumakbo sila Leona papalayo habang si Jasmine naman ay nanatili sa kaniyang pwesto. ako naman, humakbang ng kaunti papalayo. dahil sa nangyaring iyon, napilitan kaming sumakay na lamang ng pedicab upang makaiwas sa asong iyon.

nakarating naman kami sa bahay nila Bea - gutom, pagod na pagod, at bangag. kumain kami doon. nagpiktyuran din, nagsaya at higit sa lahat, nag-usap. napag-alaman na niya ang mga kamalian niya sa buhay.

umalis kami sa kanilang bahay ng mga 9 na ng gabi. at nakarating naman ako sa amin ng mga 10. hindi ko pa rin nagagawa ang aking Elevation sa Drapting.

ang pagpipilit

sinuspende ang klase ngayong araw na ito. hindi ko nga alam kung bakit eh. pero sabi ng aking itay, iyon ay dahil malakas ang ulan kanina. eh, kanina lang naman iyon eh. bakit pa kailangang isuspinde? di bale. masaya naman eh.

bago pa ako nakauwi sa aming bahay, gumala muna ako. una sa lahat, pumunta kami sa Lianas sapagkat kakain si Dale. inuulit ko, si Dale lamang. ngunit, pinilit nila ako. napilit lang pala ako. kaya pumayag na ako sa kanila.

matapos namin kumain, nasulyapan namin sila Carla sa Jollibee. pumasok naman kami sapagkat tinatawag nila kami. pagpasok namin, nakita namin sina Jasmine, Albert, Philippe at Ohio. kinamusta namin sila. sa katunayan ay kinilig pa nga si Dale sapagkat andoon si Ohio. pagkatapos ay umalis na kami.

hindi pa ako tumuloy sa aming tahanan sapagkat inimbitahan kami ni Dale na pumunta sa kanila. inimbitahan nga ba? basta. nanood lamang kami ng Ginger snaps back/Gingersnaps II. dumating nga pala si Jasmine. pero matapos ang ilang oras ay umuwi na rin kaagad ako sapagkat pinapauwi na ako ng aking butihing ina.

nakauwi na ako at dahil sa sobrang pagod ay nakatulog ako habang nagbabasa ng librong hiniram ko kay Leona.

ang presentasyon

ngayong araw na ito ay itinakda upang kami ay magsayaw. OO, tama ang narinig ninyo. MAGSASAYAW ako. hindi ko naman talaga gusto iyon. napilitan lamang ako sapagkat dumalo pa ako sa aming meeting sa Filipino. hindi naman ako nakatanggi sapagkat kawawa naman ang grupo namin. kaya eto, nagsakripisyo ako ng dalawang minutong kahihiyan sa harap ng klase.

pagpasok ko sa paaralan, wala muna akong pakielam sa kung ano man ang mangyayari. ngunit nang may tumapik sa aking balikat, nagsimula na ang kinatatakutan ko. si jasmine leonor ang tumapik sa akin at tinanong niya ako kung may dala ba akong Filipiniana. ang sagot ko'y wala. hindi ko alam kung bakit iyon ang sinagot ko. siguro ay wala pa ako sa tamang katinuan nang mga oras na iyon. nagulat si Jasmine sa aking winika at napasigaw siya. at doon sa oras na iyon ay namulat ang aking kaisipan sa ilang oras ng kahihiyan.

sa klase namin sa pisika, hinayaan kaming magpraktis para sa aming programa sa Filipino. at pagdating naman sa Matematika ay nagklase na kami. hindi kami pinayagang magpraktis ni Ginoong Torrecampo sapagkat mahuhuli na daw kami sa aming mga leksyon. sa kasamaang palad, ang susunod na klase ay Filipino. tumunog na ang bell. hindi na ako mapakali ng mga sandaling iyon.

pumunta na kami sa banyo upang magbihis. sinuot ko ang Filipiniana kong kimona at patadyong na kulay orange. pagkatapos, umakyat na kami upang maghanda na sa gagawing programa.

dumating na nga ang oras na pinaka-ayaw ko. ang grupo na namin ang susunod. sa kabutihang palad ay hindi ko nakalimutan ang mga steps sa aming sayaw. ayos naman ang sayaw namin. buti na lang.

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pumunta ako sa SM nang mag-isa ngayon. hindi na ako nakasabay kina Leona sapagkat nagkaroon kami ng meeting para sa nalalapit na programa namin sa MAPEH.

nakita ko siya. kinamusta niya ako at sumagot din naman ako. iiiiiiiiiiiii. joke. wala na rin naman akong nararamdaman sa kanya eh kaya baliwala na lang sa akin ang mga pangyayaring iyon.

siya nga pala. bumili ako ng anim na cartolina para sa Drapting namin.

lunes.

walang pasok ngayon. pero hindi ko alam kung bakit.


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kagabi, nag-"movie marathon" kami ng aking nakababatang kapatid na si Justin. nanood kami ng "The Exorcism of Emily Rose". dahil sa kahilingan ng aking kapatid, at para na rin samahan niya ako sa panonood, sinunod na namin ang "Transformers" kahit ito'y paulit-ulit na naming napapanood. para sa inyong impormasyon, kami'y nanonood lamang sa Internet at alam kong piracy ang tawag doon. ngunit, wala namang perpekto diba? at sabi din sa "Seed of Chucky", "Rome wasn't built in one day".

sa kadahilanang masyadong malakas ang tunog, nagising ang aking itay at nakisama na rin siya sa panonood namin. at dahil hindi pa kami nakokontento sa halos tatlong oras naming panonood, ay pumili na naman kami ng palabas na isusunod namin. ang aking itay ang pumili. at ang pinili niya ay ang palabas na "The Gods Must be Crazy". makalumang palabas na ito subalit napakaganda niya. simple lang ito - walang special effects - ngunit nakakatuwa. ang palabas na iyon ay tungkol sa isang simpleng Bushman. hindi ko na ito ikukwento pa sapagkat nakakatamad na.

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bumalik na tayo sa nangyari ngayon. basta, pagkagising ko, naglinis ako ng kwarto. at pagkatapos ay nanood na naman kami ng isang palabas - "The Gods Must be Crazy 2". hindi ko inakalang aabutin kami ng limang oras sa pagnood lamang nito sapagkat napakabagal ng aming Internet connection. halos sinumpa ko na ata iyon sa sobrang galit. pero sa kabutihang palad, natapos naman namin ang palabas at nangako kami sa aming ina na hindi na muli manood ng ganoong palabas at kahit ano pang mga palabas sapagkat aksaya lamang ito sa kuryente.

headache madness.

i'm having severe headaches this past few days. just now, i'm feeling that my head's gonna burst. it really hurts.

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i just arrived from megan's house after practicing for our filipino play and dance. uhmmm, you may find the next words shocking so beware. i'm part of the dance. i think it's the time for you to laugh. okay, i know, i'm not good at dancing at all. but because of some circumstances, i was part of it. well, it's only for two minutes. two minutes of mortification on my reputation.

i'm also part of the play, wherein my role is the first teacher (unang guro). haha.

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until now, my head's aching.

saturation day.

today's saturday.

jasmine went to our house this morning to give me her application form for Ateneo. she went with her pajamas. she's a bother, actually, after going here in our house without finishing everything, especially the essay. i mean, she went here without finalizing all. okay, okay, it's just the essay and the pictures.

so after that, we went to Ateneo. my dad didn't accompany to the building, so i went with my camera to take some pictures (pictures of the place only, not including myself). and then, i entered the admission office. i waited inside while looking at the students and some parents asking for an extension. i pitied one guy. he said that he just came here in manila from BATANGAS. whoa, that's too far. but the officer (is that the right term) didn't allow him to pass his form anymore for there's something missing - a very small and single thing that has the power to change lives. the form doesn't have the signature of , i'm not sure if it's his parents or principal or teacher.

it's now my turn and i handed down jasmine's and my form to the woman with flu. yes, i'm sure she has a flu. and then i waited AGAIN for the test permit. jasmine's schedule was different from me.




after that, we went to Taguig. and then to Baclaran. :)) my mom bought me a Filipiniana there. it costs only for ------. :))

it's not TGIF.

today's not a TGIF-happy-day.

well, today's the last day of our periodical exam.

yesterday's exam was easy, but not today. economics was quite okay for me. but the next subjects were such a SH*T. physics? argh. out of 50 items, i only got 33. well, that's 80%. filipino? no comment. DRAFTING. my score should be 60 out 65 IF i didn't multiply the measurements to two. oh my. i'm so stupid. stupid. stupid. stupid. argh. and, lastly, our advance trigonometry. haha. out of 45 items, i only got 22. haha. :))

subject change.

nina had her blow-out today in Mcdo. but, mariel and i accompanied myrra to Olivarez Hospital because myrra needed to get her sister's prespcription from the doctor. unfortunately, it took us so long that we arrived at mcdo with disappointment. after hours of waiting with our stomachs empty, we only saw NOTHING.

we waited.

we expected.

we cried.

we laughed.

we decided to kill our time at 711.

this day seemed to be the most peculiar of all.

upcat.

remember what i've written two weeks ago? well, i'm gonna post now my upcat experience. haha. i didn't think that it would take weeks. you know, the HELL WEEK. to make it short, i'll just make an outline of it. well, except for the upcat preparation and the upcat itself.

so, friday, august 1 2008, we had a free day. it's not a free day, actually. it's a review day for us, the seniors. awwww. the 4B students had a breakfast galore during their English class. but we just stayed in our room, studying the review materials we had had last summer (for those who attended review centers, like me). some of the REJUVINATING students went to our room to share their foods - breads with butter and jam, tuna with cabbage, etc. almost all of our subject teachers agreed to us that we shall review for the test in UP (UPCAT for short) except for --toooot--. well, let's just hide its real name for privacy.

let's not talk about that anymore. so, leona, dale, and jasmine are scheduled to take the test the next day, august 2, 2008, which also means that i won't be able to be with them AND i won't have anyone whom i know to be with me on the day i was scheduled.

so, august 3, sunday came. but the night before, i can't sleep. i really can't sleep. i don't know, maybe i'm just too excited or scared or nervous or something. so, i woke up with my eyes still closed. life is full of paradox, isn't it? whenever the upcat is not near, i'm feeling excited. but now, i mean that day, i felt scared.

my mom is really excited about the said event/thing/happening. she woke me up at 4 in the morning and at 5, we left. we arrived at UP Diliman at exactly 5:30 AM. the atmosphere is still dark and cold. and the cold breeze of dawn increased my feeling of uncertainty and doubt ,and also fear. my hands were cold and i suddenly felt something, something i can't explain. i held my hands and placed it on my belly. OH NOOOOO. my stomach aches. :)) well, that's natural, i thought, whenever i'm afraid i always had a stomachache.

so, my mom accompanied me to the School of Economics. there are a lot of kids around (maybe i should call them examinees, or UPCAT trash. kidding.) so, i'll just describe what my inferences are on the type of humans i have observed. almost all are rich kids. they're wearing clothes that are cool today, but when i saw their faces, i was shocked. they don't look like one. joke. haha. so, there was this girl who don't really acted like one. and, there were also a group of berks who dressed like they're factory workers 'cause they're wearing the same color of shirts. and then, there's also a cute guy, i'm pertaining to a fat guy, who looks like ***. try to guess.

after that, we went to our respective rooms. wow, the room's big and air-conditioned too. so, i went to the cr first so that there would be no more disturbances while taking the test. i was shocked when i returned because it is i whom they waited for them to start the test. it's very humiliating. i entered the room and i could see their eyes looking at me with mercy - so pitiful on myself being stupid. ooooohhhhh. so, after that, we started the test. my seatmate, who is a boy, was so noisy. i could hear the crumbling of the chips he was eating. and also the plastic. argh.

in summary, the UPCAT was so hard, for me. i don't know to some. but for me, it is sooooo difficult.

August 4, 2008 - nothing special happened
August 5, 2008 - i crammed for my report in english. chapter 21, The Return.
August 6, 2008 - i reported; i learned that the real pronunciation of JUSTO is Husto not Dyusto.
August 7, 2008 - i crammed for my project in Drafting, which is the floorplan, and in Physics.
August 8, 2008 - i passed all the projects. my grade in the floor plan is 96 and in Physics, i don't know.

August 9, 2008 - i went to Megan's house to do our project in MAPEH, which is a painting
August 10, 2008 - we went to SM Southmall to watch Landas

as of now, all i can say is that i'm tired. my hands can't continue anymore. i'll just post tomorrow, i think, all about the special events that happened this week. ADIOS.

UPCAT

i'll post next time, if i have one, all about the exhilarating UPCAT experience.

it's just that i have a very hectic schedule this week.

well, actually, it's HELL WEEK.

another stupid act.

stupidity strikes me again.

yesterday, it was announced that there will be no classes today because the president will be declaring her State of The Nation Address (SONA). well, i went to school today. surprisingly, there were no students - students in white and in blue - wandering around. i was shocked, thinking that i was too early. and then my dad asked Manong Guard if there are classes or not. and he answered, "Wala po, wala po." hahahah. my dad just laughed at me.

why don't i know that there are no classes today? well, first of all, we didn't hear the news yesterday because my dad turned off the TV. second, i wasn't able to log in on YM because it's my brother's turn. third, i was busy doing my plates in drafting (bedroom floor plan). fourth, my parents do sleep early so they didn't bother asking me if there will be classes or not.

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what's scope and delimitations. why am i going to do such stupid thing? what the heck.! what is it for? stupid. stupid. stupid.

La Salle and Ateneo

so, uhmmm. we went to Ateneo and La Salle today to get the forms.

first, we went to Ateneo. wow. the school is really big. but it looks like a park. you know, with many trees and vacant areas covered with green and luscious grasses. the school has a big soccer field (i am not sure if that's soccer or football.) and the buildings were kinda old and small (i'm pertaining to the height).

when we entered the building where the admission forms are given, i saw some college students speaking in english. whoa. yes, they are. and it is as if they were really used to that language. and also, their clothes were ASTIG.

girl: oh no. you're contaminating my brain with your capricious stories.
boy: no, no, no. it's not the brain, actually, it's your cerebrum.
girl: stop it. (laughing) it's also the same.
boy: no. (laughing) it's different. can't you remember, bla bla bla
I: (placing my pointing finger, parallel to my lips, below my nose while raising my head) NOSEBLEED!

that's all what i can remember. they're talking about brains and some things related to it.

we also went to La Salle after Ateneo. the school's not that pretty for me, at first. but when we entered the hall in which we can get the application forms, it was totally great and stunning. it looks like a first class hotel. and its comfort room, wow, just like in greenbelt.

so, after that, we went to Taguig.

Mcday.!

Today is Mcday.!
yeah. :))

RESPECT is what we need.

so, we had our physics class.. and a test. it was a surprise (maybe not.) before the test, i started to get troubled. i even asked myrra her "techniques" in remembering those stupid graphs. and michael too. well, he's not helping me. he even started bragging about how easy those graphs to be remembered. argh. it's really irritating me, especially his famous "CHICKEN" and "BASURA" words. argh. well, i don't really know how, but i got a perfect score. omg. to Crespo, CHICKEN.! :))

haha. so we practiced and practiced. yet, i still can't memorize the hand actions. argh.

before the program, there's something SHIT happened.

"Pwede ba, sa susunod, wag kang pabigla-biglang papapasok sa classroom namin? at si Mujib, 4-1 siya, hindi 4-2".

note: the words above are not exact, but the thought is clear.

inaway ng isang skwater si Jasmine Suleik. argh. sobrang nakakaasar talaga siya. sobra. sobra. sobra. ansarap niang sabunutan. wala siyang karapatan na ganunin si Jasmine.aba, porket presidente siya ng klase, gaganyanin na niya si Jasmine? TAE. baket? porket galit siya sa mga ParSci students, bakit niya kailangang gawin iyon? wala ba kaming karapatan na pumasok sa building nila, o sa classroom nila? ANKAPAL NG MUKA MO. sige, kung ganun, wag kang pumasok sa building ng ParSci ha. subukan mo lang at magugulpi ka namin. at. at. sinabi niya na, "hindi 4-2 si Mujib, 4-1 siya.". hindi ko alam kung ano ung exact words na sinabi niya. basta, ganyan iyon. so what? anong magagawa namin kung nasa 4-2 si Mujib. ano yun, sasabihin namin na "Mujib, lumabas ka muna diyan kasi bawal DAW kami pumasok sa 4-1 eh. pinagbabawalan kami pumasok". ganon? P*TA. nako, respeto lang naman. RESPETO lang ang hinihingi namin. kung ayaw niya kami makita sa classroom "niya", edi sabihin niya naman iyon in a nice way. pwede namang sabihin niya iyon na hindi nakaka-hurt ng feelings eh. TAKTE. bahala ka. ikaw ang nagsimula ng gulo, at ikaw rin dapat ang tatapos. ayos ba, SOL, Ms. Antipatikong President, huh? I can't contain the set-up, can you still?

so, let's not talk about her anymore. it's irritating me.

by the way, i'm gonna miss sir Jonathan. i really gonna miss him.

FREE DAY.

i consider this day as a FREE DAY. whoa. first time. well, it's because we're having a program tomorrow for Sir Jonathan Esguerra. he's going to Dubai. and he's migrating, i think. and, we have to prepare something for him.

well, we also did our oral defense on our title, which is "The Effectivity of Mango Peel Extract in Preventing Skin Cancer". we had a hard time thinking a problem. that's our problem at first. our problem is our problem. haha. it's redundant.

now, back to the program something, i am included in the doxology. haha. actually, Cyril forced Mickay and I to participate. but it's okay. atleast we have our part. Myrra, Cecille, Ailena and Louieric will sing 'Shout to the Lord' and we're gonna have the actions something.

so, good luck to us.

blah. blah.

today seemed to be our inauspicious day. almost all the teachers were mad at us. first Mrs. De Jesus, because of the bulletin board and our low scores in the test, and then Mrs. Alvendia. argh.

but our journalism class TODAY was different. it was now worth studying and attending. haha. :)) i hope that this would still continue for the next journalism classes.

*chinansingan ni faye si MICHAEL ANDREW CRESPO.

gwapo ni JUAN LUNA

so, i've finished my sketch on Juan Luna's face yesterday. haha.





yes. yes, i know. my sketch is brilliant. don't be jealous, okay? haha. joke. :))


uhmmm. leona and dale also went to our house. takte. naka-motor sila. andaya. saglitan nga lang sila sa bahay eh. tapos, napaso din si dale dun sa tambucho ng motor nia. basta. tapos, nalaman ko pa na pumunta pala sila leona at jasmine sa bahay nila dale kahapon. grabe. kainggit. hindi ko yun alam ah.

tagalog muna. :)

Happy Birthday!.

uhmmm. today is the birthday of dale's mom. happy birthday to her.! :) well, i heard that they'll serve LECHON. i hope jasmine suleik would come. she'll definitely enjoy the scrumptious food served. :)) haha.

today. i'm planning to do my LAST project in arts with Sir Jason Balaoro. it's a sketch/painting of your chosen filipino artist (painter). well, i have decided to draw Juan Luna's gorgeous face. yes. he's good-looking and attractive too. actually, it is his mustache that gave a great attention. haha. :))

well, good luck to me. and to him.

TGIF (:

Many events happened today. Here's an outline:

* I felt the presence of the Lord today, awhile ago, during our Research class.

our group doesn't have a topic yet. we haven't even discussed this before. uhmmm. we did, but our discussion is senseless. days had passed, and still, we haven't thought of one. until today. awhile ago, we had our defense of the titles. what shall we present and stand up for? it's really mortifying if we'll just stand there and do nothing. we'll look stupid and irresponsible persons. argh. with my fingers crossed, i prayed that we shall not be called. oh no. oh no. YES! the bell rang. haha. we're saved.

* Leona and Dale's proposal was rejected

owwww. their proposal was thrown out (not literally). i forgot what it is, but it has something to do with an alcohol lamp incubator that will cultivate a certain bacteria. so, that's it. they will just think of another topic. well, good luck to you guys.

* Dylan Melicano treated us

well. i didn't expect that dylan would treat us (rommel and i) a softdrink. he just said, "gusto niyo ng RC?" and then voila.! i don't know what came into his mind that time. what i can still remember is that we three are discussing about their own researches.

* My mom bought me a new pair of school shoes

that's it. she bought me a new pair of shoes. FIGLIA. it's kinda weird. but i like it. should i describe it? well, it's black. with heels (not that high, maybe half an inch). it doesn't have a ...uhmmm. well, it's hard to explain. here's the picture of it.



uhmm. so, that's all. Thank God it's Friday.! :) rest day.

omg. we tackled about the different mental disorders awhile ago. i discovered that i also have one (actually, there's two). according to the reporter's discussion, there are symptoms to a particular dysfunction. and two of those really fits me. argh.

Paranoia is a disturbed thought process characterized by excessive anxiety or fear, often to the point of irrationality and delusion. so, it simply means that one suffers from great fear (not phobia, actually) from people, that they will harm you in some way, whether physically, mentally or emotionally. well, i often think that way. but not too much. of course. well, sometimes, paranoia is related to phobia. but it really is not.

well, speaking of phobias, i'm an EPISTAXIOPHOBIC, meaning i fear nosebleeds. haha. NOSEBLEED.! :)) my 'lil brother is a DIDASKALEINOPHOBIC, which means he is afraid of going to school. haha. it really fits him. :)) and. and. i also have one friend who fears bathing. JASMINE SULEIK is ABLUTOPHOBIC. HAHA. :))



so. uhmmm. leona and i didn't come with jasmine and dale to SM today.

omg. i have found a perfect piece. it's AVE MARIA by Scubert. well, it's a nice song. i wish i could play it.


for the free piano sheet, click THIS




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argh. i'm grounded. no piano. no tv. no pc. well, they're not around. i can still do what i want. haha.

potajorn.

potajorn

the higher the step i take the more pain i bear.
it hurts me so much that i need someone to accompany me.

i tried my best to wear a smile
but i can't force myself
so i force to smile
leaving only a mark of uncertainty inside.

it hurts me so much
but no one sees
i'll just stay pretty alive
but my soul not inside

the words you've said,
the actions you've shown
all of them cause me to suffer
suffer from an inevitable situation

my first few weeks seem to be the loneliest of all. :|

this is our uniform.
yeah. it's cool.



that's leona and i.

stupidity comes with happiness.

another week has passed. and another stupid act has been done.

well. my week never ends without having some sort of nightmares. well, they're pretty much fun too. so, here's one of my stupid act this day:

after school, we went to Jasmine's house. and then, we went to 7 eleven to have some slurpee (the smallest cup only). i wanted to go to Leona's house but i can't because we're going to Taguig. But when i arrived in our house, nobody's home. omg. my mom didn't give me the key. how can i go inside? well, my first plan is to climb on the gate. well, i didn't actually try to do that. it's dangerous. haha. i came up with my second plan. and that is to disturb my neighbor and tell them that the gate is locked and i needed to go inside. well, it's a stupid plan, though. but, i actually did that. haha. i climbed into my neighbor's "BAKOD" (see, i'm stupid. i don't know what is the english word for that.) and voila! i am inside our house. haha. but there's still a problem. the door’s locked. argh. well, i didn’t bother to think of a solution to that. it’s just a waste of time and my energy. so, i waited… waited… and waited for two hours but they’re not yet home. well, at that time, i remember that my mom left the key on ATE BING, our neighbor. so, i approached her and my thoughts were right. the key is on her. argh. argh. argh.

well, it’s on you whether you will judge my absurdity or not. well, I don’t care. i really don't care.

i'm stupid. yet, i'm happy. :]

Happy Birthday Dad.

i'm so cruel 'coz i have forgotten the day my dad was born. i forgot it's his birthday today. argh. please accept my apology. i'm really really sorry. i didn't mean it. i thought that it's next month. sorry. sorry.

so. it's my dad's birthday today. happy birthday to you dad.! i love you.

yer. yer.

AMC or ALC?

AMC and ALC.

AMC stands for Anti-Myrra Catarroja
AMC stands for Anti-Michelle Cavan
AMC stand for Anti-Michael Crespo
ALC stands for Anti-Louieric Casibua

choose the right club where you really belong. :)

CHUPA CHUPS.

yehey. we're done with our report in ARTS. actually, it's on the spot. . and yet, we got a perfect score. (but i think that's because of our energizer. haha.) we really thought about getting a low grade on our report. we didn't expect it. still, thanks to sir. yeah.

uhmm. oh right. we have our CHUPA CHUPS moments awhile ago with Leona, Dale, Leira, Philippe, Edu, Ohio, Albert and Crespo. Michael Andrew Crespo paid it all. he's such a nice person. after all, he's the new PINAKA-KATAASTAASAN SA DIBISYON NG PARAÑAQUE. nice leona. :))

|CHUPA CHUPS. the pleasure of sucking.|

FRANK rocks.

thanks to FRANK, we don't have classes today. go FRANK. yeah.

if someone's wondering what he is, let me tell you. he's a storm. okay? got it? haha. :))

i'm supposed to be happy. i'm supposed to be enjoying the day. but there is something that bothers me. let me think. OH MY GOSH. omg. i forgot. i need to write my report in MAPEH (thanks to your sir RJ) argh. i thought i have finished all my assignments. well, i don't need to panic today. i'm just going to do that tomorrow. well. cramming is my partner. procrastination is my group.

yer. yer. whatever. :|

confessions of a young stupid girl.

yeah. after all this years that i have been talking about my new phone, karma strikes me. yeah o yeah. KARMA hit me. and it really made my heart go mad. argh. i hate that day. i really. maybe it is best if i should stop reminiscing those days with my phone. but i can't help myself. argh.! i really hate it.

|God has plans.|

[: new phone.

well, after years of waiting, after the tears i've shed, after all my endless talking, now i have my new phone. but it's not the phone i really love and like. yet, it's okay. it's good to have one than nothing.

actually, i only pushed my mom to buy me one. haha. it's alright for her. she's so nice. and good. really? haha. :))