satearday

i woke up seeing them went off. it's my second time to be left alone. well, i don't want to go with them. i don't care whatever place they'll go.

yes, no priest parents. no stupid brother. no hyper kid.

lucky? maybe not.

i saw him again. yes, that stupid happy-go-lucky gay. i was annoyed when i saw him online in my list. steam went out my ears. i want to kill that guy/gay/homo/mortal. tears fell off from my eyes. i cried because of great wrath. suddenly i stopped, thinking that i was stupid. yes, a great moron.

my dad called me, saying that they're at EK. what? they went without me. i cried again. but it's not the one i did for him.

oh. by the way, i remember that today's saTEARday. it's a 24-hour full blast. it's a bad day. a very bad day, indeed.

when i opened my friendster account, there's a new comment. i was happy about that. yet when i clicked it, i saw jerome's comment to me.

-shadOwhEarts-
08/29/2008 10:28 am

bakit? anong problema sa order? may kinalaman ba un sa pagiging close sa isang tao? ASAR LNG UN AH. Edi ibig-sabihin pla nun huli pla ako.

so, he's mad at me. okay. okay. it's my fault. sabi ko kay dale na "awch. si jerome na ung first featured mo." actually, wala na kong masabi kaya ung ung sinabi ko. iyon ang totoo. wala naman talaga akong intensyong masaktan nang todo si jerome. haller? aawayin ko si jerome? okay. inaway ko na pala siya. pero hindi ko un sinasadya.

again, naiyak na naman ako. sobra. habang tinitignan ko ung comments nia sa iba-ibang tao. edi na-hurt din ako kasi sinasabi niya sa ibang tao - na para bang ako ung may kasalanan. oo, kasalanan ko nga, pero diba nakaka-hurt kapag iyon din ang iniisip ng ibang tao saken? grabe tong araw na to.

i'm still crying up to now.