fresh day

monday - a fresh day to start your week. it should be calm, peaceful... and... and... i let it down. yeah. this monday was a weird one (well, not exactly). i just failed all of our tests. well, here's the start of everything, my most precious despicable monday.

i peacefully got off my bed to turn off the alarm that disturbed my precious sleep. i had no choice but to get up and take a bath. and so, i checked the time and it's already 6 in the morning. thank goodness, i was finished. all that i have to do is to fix my things and go out.

i arrived at the school while they are singing the national anthem. i was surprised when mickay was behind me and told me... if i have reviewed on our test in ENGLISH. what?! omg. i forgot about that. yest, three chapters (haha. that's only three chapters). you're stupid when you're thinking that way. three chapters meant three days. yes, three days of suffering and memorizing all the tiny details mentioned. three chapters? oh no. every chapter is read for about two hours (if you really need to remember the slightest words, details, or whatever it is). all that i did that time was to pray. pray that the test would be cancelled and continued the next day or the next week, whatever he prefers.

WE HAD THE TEST. yes, that stupid test. i'm quiet sure that i'm going to fail. at least i tried and answered the first one. if only i knew the kind of test... i'll surely not memorize every single detail the chapter has... if only... if only i knew...

never mind that thing. so, we also had our mcday today....

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wala na kong oras. paalam na.

[sigh]

regarding dun sa balloon namin sa values, all i can say is SHIT. isang malaking TAE. hayyy. ang babaw ko naman. iniyakan ko pa yan kagabi (considering the time, which is almost 2 in the morning, we can say that it happened this morning). sobra as in humagulgol ako. :)) pano ba naman, my mom told me that the balloons were already set. so, i trusted her, of course, for she even bothered to text me about that STUPID little thing. and then, siguro mga maggagabi na, my tita texted me that the balloons weren't the one i needed - the stupid balloons on sticks, the one that doesn't fly, without helium. she reasoned out that helium balloons were not allowed, according to the law. DUH?!

fortunately, my mom helped me (well, maybe it's because she saw me sitting on one corner, crying). she got the yellow pages and then called one of those balloon experts. :)) as a matter of fact, my mom WAS NOT angry at me that she shouted at me, like the teachers and the sisters i've met on my grade school years. well, that's sarcastic, if you don't know.

so, the balloons are okay now. yessss. except for the payment. it's COD (cash on delivery), which means you have to pay when it comes.

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home alone again. so, i'm right in front of the computer, writing another stupid blog. :| actually, it's very hard to be alone in your house. you have to do a lot of house works (if your house is not that clean, like ours). so, i washed the dishes, cleaned the rooms, cooked food for myself (well, i only cooked noodles this afternoon, and that's my dinner already), uhmmmm... what else? watched movie - i finished AMERICAN PIE beta house yesterday, and today i watched MEAN GIRLS, updated my friendster account, slept just for an hour (that's amazing), watched Yamato Nadeshiko Shichi Henge the wallflower this afternoon at 4, uhmmm... that's all, i guess.

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time check: it's already 12:30 in the morning and they just arrived. whoa. i was surprised when my mom held in her hands a nintendo ds. well, i wish it were psp. but then... well, it's okay than nothing. so, i think my talking ends here. i also have to try that small stupid thing. :))

boredom

sa wakas at natapos ko na rin ang drafting namin (left elevation). hayyyy. pero habang gumagawa ako, nguya naman ako ng nguya ng tsokolate. wala lang. HOME ALONE nga din pala ako. so, ako lang ung mag-isa sa bahay.

lady of shalott, you and i together in this strange world

whoa. so, i'm kinda addicted to a book, which i told you wasn't mine, entitled 'Avalon High'. well, actually, it's not the book that i liked, but the legend it foretells. is it a legend or something? i don't know.

elaine of astolat - a heartbroken chick. so, elaine was a noble lady who fell wildly in love with Lancelot, a medieval hottie. when her love was not returned, she neither eat nor sleep for TEN DAYS. after her death, her body was sent down the river on a barge to somewhere where KING ARTHUR found it. she held a note in her hands for lancelot.

so, uhmmm. there was this guy named ALFRED LORD TENNYSON, a poet in the 19th century who wrote a poem about her. "THE LADY OF SHALOTT"

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english class - we had this weird yet fun activity. it's about knowing what your personality and career is. well, it started on a shape. you have to pick what shape you want or represents you. i picked square (but i really love the squiggle thing) as my first. and then, sir dids gave us the 'answer key' or 'guide'.

square - organized, detailed, KNOWLEDGEABLE, persevering, patient; meticulous, cool, not picking, LONER, ALOOF, procrastinating, complaining, resistant to change

aloof and loner, eh? haha. well, maybe, sometimes. like what i'm currently experiencing this year. i'm a little bit alone, with a different world from theirs. i can sense that they can feel it. THEY who always keep on stabbing and, without even noticing, killing me with frustrations and anguishes. i'm getting a little bit EMOtional today. i can't blame myself for doing so. it's just that these things keep running into my head, shouting and angry at me. just stick your nose out if it. got that?

ohio at dale. dale at ohio. dd at oqo. oqo at dd. olarte at taduran. taduran at olarte.

kakaiba tong araw na to. sobra. parang andaming free time. una ung physics, absent kasi si Mrs. De Jesus. buti na lang kasi may test kami. tapos filipino. may seminar kasi kaming mga seniors. eh hanggang lunch pa naman yun. tapos, inalam ko kung ano ung blood type ko. alam ko na siya (O daw sabi ng nanay ko). pumila kami para ipatusok ang daliri namin sa karayum at magpadugo. :)) eh, medyo may pagkaduwag ako pagdating sa ganun, kaya nagpahuli ako.

ayun, hinabol muna namin nila Loriza at Arwin ung speakers. pano ba naman, gagawin namin silang mentors. natuwa naman kami nung pumayag na sila. syempre.

tapos, balik na sa main. pumila na ako at nagpatusok na. masakit siya, syempre nilagyan ba naman ng alcohol. basta, masakit. laking gulat ko naman at walang lumabas na dugo. syempre natakot ako nun dahil baka tusukin uli ako. buti na lamang at may lumabas, pero kakaunti lamang. tapos pinisil-pisil pa ung daliri ko para dumanak na ang dugo. :))

ayun, nalaman ko rin pala na A+ pala ung blood type ko. barbero talaga nanay ko. :)) haha. joke lang yun.

siya nga pala, naglaro nga pala kami ni leona ng TIC-TAC-TOE. nanalo ako syempre. at si jubac? natalo ko rin siya ng isang beses. bwahahahah. :)) nagpusoy dos din kami. ayun oh. bumalik na naman kami sa dati, adik na adik. naglaro kami nila arene, ako, leona, jas, jam, at ann. masaya siya, sobra.

tapos, uwian na. edi umuwi na kami. sabi ko kay dale na wag na sumabay samin para magkasama sila ni OHIO. tinanong ko nga rin pala si ohio na ihatid na lang si dale, syempre. pero ayaw eh. kaya yun, kaming tatlo na naman ang magkakasabay.

7-11 muna para magpalamig at uminom ng slurpee. nilibre kami ni dale dahil nakita na naman niya si ohio. lagi naman ganun eh, pag andyan na si ohio, nililibre niya kami. kaya yun, pumasok ung GOS (hindi na nga EGOS eh, wala na kasi si EDU. ewan ko kung bakit.) sa 7-11. malamang ang dahilan ay andoon si dale (hindi ako sigurado pero iyon ang nahihinuha ko).

iniwan namin si dale sa piling ng GOS sapagkat bibili si leona ng cartolina para sa drafting. tapos, bumalik na kami, nag-uusap silang dalawa. tinanong ko uli si ohio kung ihahatid niya si dale. hindi daw kasi kasama naman daw kami eh. tapos yun, nagpaalam na siya kay ohio at si ohio kay dale. tapos, ayun.

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pag-uwi ko sa bahay, walang tao. nagtext ako sa nanay ko kung nasaan ung susi pero sinabi nila na akala daw nila ay sasama ako sa kanila. so ayun, nagdoorbell ako ng ilang beses kahit na alam kong walang tao sa loob. naghintay ako ng matagal. hanggang sa dumating na ang mga magulang ko. laking gulat ko na andoon pala sa loob ang aking NAKAKAIRITANG kuya. sobra. naasar ako sa kanya nang makita ko siya. antagal-tagal kong naghintay sa labas. nagdoorbell naman ako ah? bingi ba siya. basta. iritang irita ako sa kanya nang mga oras na iyon. ang dahilan naman niya ay nilalagnat daw siya? o, talaga?

basta, dumagdag pa yun sa pag-init ng ulo ko.

ACET

so, uhmm. as of now, i'm exhausted and my nose is still bleeding. :)) well, ACET's fine, or should i say very easy. yes, indeed. it's very easy to fail. :))

i woke up at 7 in the morning. still, i haven't touched any review materials or whatsoever but a book, Avalon High - which is not mine. so, i took a bath, ate my breakfast (but not too much) and went off. to my surprise, we arrived there pretty much early, at 10:30 am. haha. my mom's really excited about it, like what happened on the UPCAT day.

at around 11:30, i saw Joshua, Bea, Myrra, Ann, Mariel, and Leira (Leira has finished her exam when we saw her). and then we talked about how we wasted our time yesterday, what we feel, etc. after some time, the ACET takers must fall in line to their respective halls. of course, accompanied by those CAT personnel (is that the right term?). much to my surprise, myrra and joshua were also with the same hall as i am. and so, we chatted. we also talked about the bee i accidentaly stepped on to. don't worry, i didn't kill that insect until myrra pushed it (she got the idea from me) that it fell and died. owww. that poor little thing.

and so, we were designated to our rooms. mine was room 19, which i actually passed by while i was walking. i entered the room and sat on one of the chairs. i was surprised when the guy proctor approached me and asked my name. i answered him CONFIDENTLY (but deep inside a little bit scared and bothered), "CAVAN." :)) he emphasized to me the sitting plan we should follow and told me to sit on the chair behind me. haha. i'm so stupid.

and so, the test started. we took first English proficiency with essay (is it significant.. hero?) and then Mathematics proficiency. 10-minute break. and then gen. knowledge (which was actually 25 items that will be answered for 5 minutes only), abstract reasoning (which actually broke my head into small parts), vocabulary (5 minutes also), reading comprehension, analogy (10 minutes , i think), logical reasoning, and numerical ability.

haha. i don't think i can pass it. one reason is that i'm stupid, brain-less, and whatsoever. second, i didn't study the night before or even the days/weeks/months before it. third, i answered the test without any knowledge in my head (stocked knowledge, that's what they call it). come what may. may God guide and help me.

emo :))

emo ba tawag dun? emo ba ung nag-dedelete ng mga pictures sa friendster (as in lahat) dahil lang nagalit ka?

is that what you call emo? is it emo when you delete all your pictures in friendster just because of you're angry or something? EMO. by the way, i love elmo.

seriously speaking

whoa. i didn't go to school today because of one reason - i don't want to. haha. :)) tomorrow's acet, but i didn't have the guts to review. or maybe i just don't feel doing it. argh. i'm getting bothered already, now that i know that the test will be having an essay part.

i hate essays. i don't know why. well, considering my brain's limited capacity to think, i am only up to two things - food and rest. yes, i am like Jose Samson who don't like anything else but movies, scrumptous foods, pretty girls... no no no. scratch the girls part... and freedom. [sigh] speaking of Jose Samson, i really think he is also quiet the same with Michael Crespo. well, according to the novel, Jose don't have stage frights. he can easily talk to people, of course, because of his straightforward personality. and, in my opinion, crespo's also like that. well, maybe a little bit. :))

so, let's not talk about that anymore.

i went to school awhile ago to pass my assignment in Economics. well, i handed it down to Paula and just left afterward. of course, i don't want to be seen by any other students/classmates/batchmates/teachers. i'm not that stupid. :))

corn flakes are yummy

okay. we visited Charmaine's mom today, during class hours. we left the school at 2:00 pm - MAPEH - and i was so glad that i didn't attend her class. :)) i somewhat hate her, but not that much. i mean, at that particular moment when we left her class.

uhmmm. by the way, crespo's back. :)) as usual, leona's talking about him and how handsome he is.

after that, we went to dale's house to... uhmmmm... i don't know. oh, i remember. they would help me answer my assignment in Economics. dale also bought us two SUNDAEs from Mcdo (she's always like that whenever she's with her beloved OHIO). and then we surfed the net, criticized some mortals in friendster, gave some comments to each other and then we ate.

we're done with the main dish and of course the next is the dessert. yumyum. i actually grabbed the Corn Flakes inside the refrigerator and then told leona that we should eat some more. leona then told me to add some milk. i have my bowl filled with corn flakes and milk. but then when i tasted it, it tastes like a BURAK! yuck. :))

suspended.

i arrived in ParSci about ten minutes late, i think. it's very humiliating, thinking that i'm the class monitor. i'm supposed to be in time always. when i arrived, they were all making sounds using their tongues - the 'ttttttttttttt' sound. they're like lizards.

luckily, when i arrived, they haven't checked our assignment. paula, my seatmate, was also copying jean's assignment. of course i copied also. :)) after some time, we heard the bell rang from GOLEZ (i'm not sure if it's golez or main). and then, we shouted. we all knew that ring means suspension of classes. haha. it really is.

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today's my brother's birthday. happy birthday justin.

okayyyy. :

iibahin ko na kagad tong lay-out. haha. may kaparehas pala ako. :))

ooops.

hindi na september 9 ngayon. 1:46 na kasi ng umaga eh. hayyyy. kakatapos ko pa lang gawin ung sa ingles. buti na lang.

mournday.

this monday is mourn day. do you want to know why? it's because Charmaine Delfin's mom passed away this morning. yes. and i heard too that her dad died long years ago. i really am sorry for her. my condolences to you and your entire family.

mourn day is just an expression of myself. it doesn't mean that Mama Mary's birthday is such a grief. so, today's also her birthday. we didn't hear mass today because 1) we are not allowed to do so, 2) there's no more enough space to accommodate us, the seniors, 3) there's no such thing as "participating in co-curricular activities"/attending mass during classes, 4) we focus more on academic aspects, 5) our principal wants that, not us, 6) maybe, God forbid us for some of us will just review for our test in English. well, those are some reasons why we haven't attended the mass today. (note: those are just inferences, meaning an INTELLIGENT guess.)

so, this day was an odd one. i don't know. it seems that this day is neither ordinary nor extraordinary. hahahaha. oh, i remember. jasmine leonor's phone is the same as my phone (yes, the robbed one). awwwwww. i can still remember that day, that day when my phone was snatched/robbed/grabbed/anything you want to call it. when was that? oh right, april 25th 2008. GOD HAS PLANS. i would stop reminscing about what had happened, starting now.

uhmmm. today's also my first time to have this REGULAR TRIP. actually, my mom forgot to give me some money. she just asked me to borrow money and she'll just pay it tomorrow. well, i haven't borrowed anything from my classmates. it's just that Leona has this not-so-big-and-that's-small debt. she owed me 20 pesos. that's a big money for me, considering that i have no money that time (uhmmm. kelan nga ba ako nagkakaroon?). back to the main topic, i rode with 4 strangers - 2 men and 1 woman. yes, four strangers yet they're kind, especially the woman. i know i met her before. wait... wait... processing... saving... yes i remmber now. she's the one from the baptism of my godson. oh yeah, she's the one who talked about what is the real meaning of baptism and the true essence of it. hahah. GATCHALIAN is such a small subdivision. :))

so, that's it. time check. 11:18 PM. i haven't finished all of my assignments including math and english, the graph and the essay. argh. i promised already awhile ago that i'll do all of my assignments already today. i hate DSL. it always tempts me give comments via friendster, to chat via Yahoo Messenger, to blog via blogspot, to chuva via chuva. :))

the boat is sinking.

i was really busy this morning - cramming, procrastinating and struggling to copy our assignment in physics. also, i haven't made a slogan for this month's celebration - science month. today's theme is SCIENCE AND TECHNOLOGY: FOCUS ON FOOD SECURITY FOR COMMUNITY DEVELOPMENT. well, i only have five minutes to make my own slogan for that. i don't have to tell you what my slogan is. BASURA lang naman iyon eh.

physics is such a hard subject, for me. i don't know why i can't understand the terms and the concepts our teacher discusses, even the book. it's just that my brain don't absorb all the things related to physics. it's just like what Jose Samson feels towards math and science. speaking of Jose Samson, today's also my first time to read the first chapter of Mass. well, thanks to Sir Dids' test.

we also had some recreational activities during our PE class. the first game was Manila Paper Dance (we didn't call it as Newspaper Dance 'cause we didn't use newspapers, anyway). so, Anthony was my partner in this game. actually, it's really fun, though we're struggling to get our feet on the manila paper. we're not the winner. yet, grins can be seen in our faces. the next game was The Boat is Sinking. this really is the game whom i liked the most. yes, i really love this for we all laughed because of our craziness. we do became like children in that time. well, here's the fun part. when blanche told us to group ourselves into 2o, Lennihan, Anthony and I were left behind. we just went to one side and look at our classmates who are really having fun counting themselves. after five seconds, i think, two humans went to us. and then, another one, and another one, until we, Lennihan, Anthony and I, were all sandwiched to the wall. we laughed until our stomach aches. as a matter of fact, we can't move on because of that. we're shocked because we didn't think that they'll go to us. hahahahah. :)) right now, while i am typing, i can't help myself but laugh. awwww, i'll surely miss this.

today's also Luis' Birthday. we didn't went to his house, even though Leona and Dale wanted to. and, because of that, i decided to treat them a slurpee, but the smallest one.

those are the highlights of what had happened today.

so, tomorrow, i'm going to Paula's house to finish our project in PHYSICS, which is the periscope. argh. physics, again.