GM diet day 1

I was from night duty, and as usual, I took a nice stroll home.

At home, I sliced the fruits I bought, then placed them inside a tupperware, so I can easily munch on them when I get hungry.

1/2 watermelon, 1/2 cantaloupe, apples, and grapes for this whole day. Sorry, only those are what my budget can afford. :(

Breakfast:

I was actually full already after eating half of my bowl. The watermelon and cantaloupe are very heavy in the stomach.

I also did my morning exercise. Maybe that's the reason why sleep didn't find me. I only got 2 hours of sleep from my night shift, and I don't know why I felt like I slept a good 8 hours. 

Uhh, I also did the weekly laundry. Ugh, so tiring.

Lunch: pretty much the same, except I didn't include cantaloupe for some unknown reasons. I wasn't done doing the laundry til 4 pm, and surprisingly, I didn't get hungry. Well, I had some cravings here and then, and my stupid brothers don't help too, tempting me with some chips and soda. But I sure managed. It's all in the head I guess.

I tried my usual exercise, but did only 1 rep because I was so frustrated on how wrong I was doing the crunches and how I can't do the burpees fast, and don't even mention those fucking push ups.

Merienda: some watermelon and cantaloupe

Thigh muscles were sore as fuck, so I decided to sleep (haven't got any since this morning). Woken up by Justin by almost 9, and shit, I would be late for work if I don't leave soon. Thanks Justin.

I grabbed an apple for my dinner, but really, I wasn't hungry, and we took off. Dad's superb driving skills didn't get me late.

Well, GM day 1? No sweat. Hehe. I only had problems on the 2L water a day. It was hard. But I did it, Forced a bottle on me til 12:30 AM while watching a movie with Kuya Ric. And yes, day 1 done! :)

Intense

Did my exercise today and it was so intense as fuck. I was sweating profusely and my heart beats so fast. I did a 10 second plank in replacement for the fucking push ups I can't do. And yep, I am now tired. And hell doesn't start til 2 pm..

Traffic at NAIA area, but luckily, the driver was smart enough to change route (and kicking out some passengers who won't go Lawton straight). If he hadn't been holding the steering wheel, I would have high five him. That's how much I was impressed.

Ordered Jollibee's TLC for my dinner. Ugh, I'm getting purged from eating Jollibee shit for three straight days. But I have no other choice. I have plenty of their gift cheques, so if I want free food, Jollibee is it then.

Only two procedures. Kuya Ric and I managed to watch 'God of Gambling' and half of some One Piece movie I didn't particularly gave much of my attention to.

My parents and Justin just went to a wake, and it's weird that I was smelling Sampaguita in the car. I mean, what the fuck ghost? Trying to scare me and shit. Note: I was the only one who can smell it.

Scared as I was, I still slept in my room. I was so fucking tired that I forgot to turn off the bedside lamp, and the YouTube video I was trying to stay awake for.

Segway: Zayn quits One Direction.

I haven't got hours to sleep. In fact, I only slept for 2 hours? But I felt rested.

Once I got home, I ate a hearty breakfast - liver - and slept for an hour only. Then took a bath and off to work. There was no traffic, that's why I bought my dinner at Jollibee.

No midwife and orderly were present. We had one post evacuation and one NSD. Chill

Slight awkward duty, but you know, awkwardness stops once you admit and accept the awkwardness itself.

And yes, Mam Flor wasn't absent today! YES

I can't fucking sleep. I even ate 2 Hansel mocha sandwich (that tastes like pancakes) because I was so freaking hungry. I watched YouTube videos, monitored 1D's whereabouts (i am not a directioner, but I do enjoy some of their songs, so don't judge), read some cliche stories at Wattpad (ugh, what else to do?), laughed at some Vines, stalked some peeps at Instagram (oh my, she's a freak), and basically stared at my fucking glow in the dark stars that doesn't glow this time (what the actual fuck?). So yeah, sleep came by 3am and I actually forced myself to do so because it's fucking Devil's time and I'm kinda scared.

I dreamt of being in the hospital blah blah blah and having duty at CD, and performing a lanky job. Like not finding the D5NR anywhere, and using a tuberculin syringe in aspirating meds for my skin test. I even felt like I punctured myself on the thumb, that's why I haven't been doing well. And there was this stupid female spectator, who loves to go with me wherever I went.

It felt so real. And the pain on my thumb? I've had it when I woke up. Weird.

Oh and somehow in my dreamstate, I was with a good looking foreigner, who let my nose bleed because of all the English I had to say. Uhh, all I can remember is we are in a classroom and we are in a class? Duh.

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2-10 shift. I left home early but there was no traffic. I had plenty of time to waste so I bought my dinner at Jollibee and even pigged out some fries while waiting for the fucking rain to subside.

I met Mark on the way and he accompanied me en route to DR. Because of him, I didn't do my usual prayer at the chapel, that's why we had one procedure and one emergency CS. But everything was lax. And oh, Ate Rose saw us and she made it an issue at the DR. you know.. but 'twas not a harmful issue.

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Mam Rhona and I were so excited to go home, that we completed our work early. However, the staff we should be endorsing to, was not responding to all the frigging texts and calls we've made. And so after a grueling hour, we've finally contacted her and she said she would be absent. WTF? Why not inform us earlier??? Mom and dad were already at the lobby, waiting for me, but of course as a junior, I was decked to overtime. And you know what, I'm in 2-10 shift tomorrow. Every 8. Good luck to me.

Fucking discipline

Off

Ate all the small cracklings for breakfast, cup of rice and fried chix neck dipped in ketchup for lunch, 3 packs of Rebisco Choco sandwich for merienda, and a fruit cocktail for dinner. I actually did my exercise today in 2 reps, sans the push ups. I can't fucking do the push ups!!

Dale and I chatted for a while at night, and we talked about the GM diet. I'm not sure I can do it though. I was pretty keen on doing it for the first few hours, but it seems like a very hard thing to do, especially that I work with people who love to eat every freaking time.

Oh well, I'll fucking try it, and if ever I feel uncomfortable as fuck, I'll stop and proceed to eat oatmeal. Hehe. Doing my own diet plan, eh? But sure I will plan ahead. You know, meal plans and grocery lists and some other shit. I'll be also trying to find out how to cook baked potatoes and the special GM soup they say was delicious and satisfying when hunger craves in.

Cross fingers. I hope I can do this. After all, losing weight is all about fucking discipline.

I had a weird dream again. This time, I was not in it. There was this weird blonde girl, who want nothing to do in her life but sleep Ughhh, I can't remember na :(

We have a morning meeting for MBFHI with Dr. Bandong, but I didn't come because I woke up late. Intentionally woke up late. I was tired okay?

Left home by 12, and as predicted, I came to the hospital by 2pm (2:15 on my watch). Delivered my payment to Ate Sienna, and forgot to buy dinner for myself. Diet right?

Anyway, cleaning day today and I was tired as fuck.

Yin and Yang

I had a nice, weird dream. Nice because I am with, I am not that sure, Dane Dehaan? Or not? But I'm pretty sure he's some hot guy. Like him.

We went hiking then the good looking lad brought us to his big white mansion.

It was pretty. He was pretty. We even shared the same bed.

I also remember being drunk and on a party. I stumbled across their house and he made me enter... White room with big shower and tub. I took a bath wore white shirt and pants at first. But changed into shorts....

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2-10 shift. Super traffic. I left the house at 12 noon, and I arrived at DR by 2 something. So my plans of buying dinner at Jollibee, and paying ate Shena were not done.

Photoshoot with Ate Meng, whose last day was today, and the staff. I look fat in it (well, you sure are fat). and haggard :(

Had two patients only. Lax day. Kwentuhan to the max. Dinner from Shakey's c/o March birthday celebrants

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One Direction in Manila!!! I am weirdly day dreaming again on how we should meet. You know, cars colliding and other weird stuffs on my head

And the stars will shine eventually

I had a busy and hot day.

Once I got home, I took a nap, then proceeded to do my usual internet routine while waiting for Ken's arrival (so dad and I could the 3+1 sacks of rice from USTH).

FYI. I haven't changed any clothing except for my pants. So, what I wore yesterday for my duty, I was still wearing when we went to the hospital. Ewe right?

Anyway, it was traffic and somehow, through the hot blazing sun, I managed to walk from Lacson to PNoval. And I ended up seeing Aiza Seguerra on Wendy's Dapitan. Uhh, segway there.

Moving on, we managed to get the rice, and we went home. But we still passed through MOA arena (OMFuckingG1D!! Huhuhu) and went inside SM Sucat. I bought myself a pair of white tennis shoes! (Heh, shoe therapy) Looks so pretty and classic.

Uhh, and I watched Amazing Spiderman 2 and swooned over Peter and Harry. The gods!!!! I cried in the end, because fucking Gwen died. I knew she'd die, because Justin was a damn spoiler. But I cried anyway.

And, the real reason I was writing in the first place, was because the fucking glow in the dark stars we bought at QC Circle finally glowed a minute ago, after a pointed my flashlight at them for a whole fucking minute. And it worked! It finally fucking worked!!!

Tiis Ganduuuuhhh

I didn't do my exercise today, 'cause my muscles were still sore as fuck. Instead, I did my usual morning walk home. With umbrella of course, since I'm on my peeling week.

But, I ended up munching 4 packs of Hansel sandwiches and drinking a cup of Mountain Dew. Diet? More like a cheat day for me. I guess I'll be making Wednesday as my cheat day.

Ugh, what else? Dale again was a lucky bastard. Damn. She's gonna see One Direction this coming weekend. For free!! Perks of being an engineer. What about being a nurse? :( I know we suck. We are losers who only get to have medical discounts because we get to be close to the doctors.

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Usual Wednesday novena at Baclaran. Then dinner (again??) at Jollibee. I was so pissed at their slow service, I felt so bad being mean to one of the busboy who came to me not knowing about my negative aura. I know, that was mean and uncalled for. My golly, I'm starting to act like C :( Noo

Lucky af

So okay, I'm on my night duty and phew, I got lucky! Cs patient gave birth not on my shift!! Yey!

But I ate 2 slices of pizza at night, care of Cs patient, which we really never handled, just post op. And I guess I sipped some Coke Zero too? Hehe. Sorry not sorry

I dreamed of Adrian and Sheila and me meeting up somewhere to attend somebody's birthday party. It was weird and I think I was aware of everything's that's happening, that I acted exactly as I would be in reality.

Anyway, I am on point duty. We had two lax patients, and I was pulled out as scrub in CD. Uhh, so lax lax lax.

I also managed to start my exercise at night. Honestly, I only did one cycle and it was hard as fuck. I was sweating and all, and I can feel my muscles sore. Ugh, it was surprisingly hard. But no pain, no gain, right?

Sundate

My off! And this day was super fun and so productive.

First off, I finished folding and ironing our clothes.

Then to SM Sucat to eat lunch. Afterwards, we headed to Eco Park, without Ken (because he's some prick), to unwind and waste money.

We actually did nothing but walk, and eat, and perspire. Losing and gaining calories at the same time. Justin was complaining every now and then, so we left by 5 PM. We went to QC Circle afterwards.

Uhh, we just wandered around the bazaar and bought some things we don't really need. Justin saw a Penny board and was about to buy it, but dad insisted we buy it in a mall for warranty purposes. So after munching a healthy mushroom burger, and buying fresh veggies, we headed to Market Market.

There, we bought Justin's Penny board, a portable massager, special sponge, shoes for mom and dad, and a DQ blizzard for us kids.

What a night. But it was fun, yeah?

Morning shift again. Super lax duty.

Sheila and I met up after duty, and I bought her Family Mart's infamous ice cream. Not that I was given a choice. Hehe

Got home by 5, and I started doing the laundry by then. I finished at fucking 10 pm!!! Too much laundry!!! I am so fucking tired and shit, I slept on the MBR.

Stupid friday the 13th

Morning shift.

Had a bad morning because the FX driver drove like a fucking turtle. Really, 40 kph? Are you fucking kidding me? What the hell is wrong with you? Good thing I wasn't late. But honestly, the stress level was too high.

When I reached the hospital, I withdrew money from ATM. I was sort of hit-on by one of the bank guards. Talk about sexual harassment. Of course, I didn't bad mouthed the imbecile. I am in the hospital for crying out loud. I am a different persona when in the hospital. So I just showed him my favorite finger.

Just one procedure - suction curettage - under a nice team of consultants. Chillax to the max.

Grocery afterwards

And, I haven't got a good fucking sleep

I had a night duty yesterday, yeah? So we only had one patient. That's why I should have gotten myself a good nap. But fuck it, one of my duty mate, decided to pull an all-nighter by roaming around the area, cleaning every crook and nook, without even minding the poor sleepy heads on the floor. I can't fucking sleep because of the noise!!!

And now my mood is sour.

Worse. Today's Ed Sheeran's concert and I can't fucking come. :( :'(

It's all in my head

Uhh, I found myself day dreaming to the max today. Like this morning, while I was taking my usual stroll home, I was thinking of my impossible-romantic-meeting with one of the 1D boys. I mean, what the heck, it must be because I was reading too much girly-girly stuffs recently. And most of them are on 1D fanfics and some sort.

And again, I was imagining my tryst with Ed Sheeran, who just fucking arrived in Manila today, and will be having a concert tomorrow. Sigh. I promised myself I would got to his concert if ever he comes here in the Phil. I was a fan way way back when his hands were devoid of any tattoos and he was awkward and shy. Well fuck it, it was sold out and it seems like I didn't really give much effort about it. Fuck fucker fuckery.

Anyway, I was also thinking what if werewolves were real, and what if I am one? I mean, I find myself always looking at the moon at night, and it is so pretty and it seems as though it was calling out to me. Well, I have been waiting for a wolfish howl, but I have yet to hear it.

Hehehe. Yep, my brain's doing a good job pulling me away from reality. But real world sucks. It's all better in my head anyways.

Sucker and Loser.

Are we out of the woods?

Uhhh, normal lazy day. Bad deed too. Sorry :(

Night again. Watched Into the Woods with Kuya Ric and Ate Nedy while munching our midnight Mcdo snacks. I also can't seem to sleep that well. I dunno.

Bfast day

Mcdo has this national breakfast day, and they have given away free McMuffins, but I didn't participate in all those shit. No one dared to accompany me. I don't know why.

I can brush again! YEY!

Night duty and I slept it all but I felt so sleepy.

Hallelujah

The pus finally came out. And it was all disgusting and yuck and gross and everything not nice. I have tasted it actually, and it's sour motherfucka.

I tell you, this was the best thing that happened today. And even though it was painful as fuck, it was worth it. I can smile and brush properly again!

You mothafucka pimple

fucking pull out again at Neuro ward. Did you know that the ward was actually on the other hospital? It's in CD, meaning if I happen to have a patient here, I would have to rush.

Funny convo with dad

I just have to capture it cause I might delete the thread soon. Dad is so cute :)

So fucking sad

I am so fucking frustrated that my pimple was still not improving. It still hurts, throbs to be more particular, and pus still leaks out. When pressed on to. And fuckershit, it hurts.

Have I mentioned it hurts?

So yes, I did not go for grocery today. I was late too. All of it was due to this fucking pimple. Fucking pimple. FUCKING PIMPLE THAT HURTS!!!!

I almost cried watching as the pus was pooling on the surface. I must be happy, right? That all of those fucking bacteria removed out of my system. But fuck, the process hurts. I was in the bathroom for nearly 20 minutes, and I think I made myself a new hero. For not minding the pain, for conquering my fear of pain.

I just hope it's not as bad as what they say about popping fucking pimples on the face. Like, how the nerves could be involved and all that. Stupid fucking science.

And to top it all off, I am alone on my shift. No midwife, no orderly. Well, I pulled out an orderly from CD, so technically I am not alone. Just awkwardly not talking to each other. I mean, what should we talk about when my mouth is ridiculously disgusting to look at. Or it is fucking painful when I try to open it. Stupid stupid stupid. And sad too. :(

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What the fuck? I was pulled out at OR to circulate an ortho case. Good thing the surgeons weren't like what we have here. They are gentle and soft spoken. Echos. But still, what the fuck office? Stupid.

Dermclinic

I went to see a dermatologist earlier with Dad. We went to Dermclinic. And yep, as I predicted, I was given an antibiotic and even got some cortisone shot (which I have to beg for because the doctor doesn't want to inject some). I spent a fortune too. 5 thousand pesos gone just like that. I just hope it would be okay tomorrow. I might be even content if the swelling stops. Cortisone, please work.

Pimp day 2

The pain is worse. Even at rest, it keeps on throbbing. I can't fucking eat nor brush my teeth because opening my mouth is painful as fuck.

I tried to prick it, but damn, I can't handle the pain. It's like having a pigsa in your face. Bullshit.

Novena at Baclaran. Then dinner at Chowking.

Pimp

So yeah, since yesterday, I have this painful pimple just on the rim of my right lip. I tried to prick it yesterday, but just decided to keep it intact. But I must say, it keeps on throbbing.

While I was on duty yesterday, I was supposed to wear mask to hide the hideously it-looks-like-a-pinple-but-as-small-as-a-whitehead. But I fucking forgot. So I just noticed the big white pus protruding and wanting to get out of the skin, when I looked at the mirror after the patient, her dad, the residents, and the consultant had the unfortunate luck of seeing it themselves. What a fucking embarrassment. My lips were chapped too! Ugh.

Before I went home this morning, I popped it small, letting the gooey white pus smear on my paper towel. Eww. And painful as fuck.

When I got home, the area beside it was painful even without movement and was fucking swelling too. Ugh. I can't eat properly nor speak. Well, I still ate. Fucking appetite.

Night duty. 2 NSD cases. Chillax.

And yes, my face is still fucking swelling. The infamous area, I mean. Fucking pimple.

Busy

Woke up early to attend an IVT seminar. With Sheila the whole half day. Ate lunch at KFC.

I went home still cause I have 8 more hours to spare. Read mortal instruments and watched some vines.

Night shift with one patient. Dr. Decena and her nosebleed talk with the patient's father.

Wasted

So tired. Overtime for 2 hours :(

Macky's first birthday was today too. I arrived at Leona's place by 3 pm because I somehow got back to sleep after telling Dale over the phone that I'll be there in ten.

I wore my new olive skinnies today.

Dale brought Pep over, and we somehow managed to converse.

Went home early, with Dale and Pep, and they paid for my trike fee. Suck it up.

Folded the clothes, ironed uniforms, and rested early